Marconis
08-31-2006, 11:48 PM
I am so emotionally drained right now. In July, as I've stated in other posts, I was bitten by three ticks. I feel I have lyme disease, and have a co-infection rash to prove it. I went to the doctor today and his dismissed all of my symptoms, even the rash. He didn't even order a blood test. I was so upset by this you have no idea. On the car ride home I began to stare for five minutes and I was unresponive to my mother because I was so lost in my thoughts. For the past three nights I've cried while sitting at my computer, while reading about symptoms of diseases I think I have, and so on. I never used to cry, until now, as I think my anxiety has really reached a new level. Every time I go to the doctor I am afraid (literally, as in my hear beats faster) to tell them about my symptoms because I feel like they get annoyed and will just tell me it's all in my head. Today the doctor laughed when I told him I think I have an infection. My parents don't take me seriously and I cannot take it. They just tell me to stop worrying and then walk away. Once my mother even rolled her eyes when I told her I had a headache. This made me feel like I was worthless. I know my parents love me with all their heart, but right now I think they are beginning to ignore me when I think I have a real problem. I do actually have a malformation in my brain, and if my symptoms become worse one day Im afraid theyll tell me to stop worrying and that it's all anxiety and wont act seriously about it and there is nothing I can do. I am sorry but I really needed to vent. Does anybody else feel like nobody ever listens to them?

