After reading all that I can find on bipolar I have come to the conclusion that I am bipolar II. My tdoc has told me she believes I am as well. However.......

The pdoc hasn't said ......So what am I to do....I don't fit in anywhere... I am depressed, I have racing thoughts, I feel ( from what I have been reading ) that I am in a mixed state.

Not having the right meds. I don't think I will get any better.

So lost so confused......Ok so what if the pdoc doesn't agree with me and the tdoc? I go to a state mental health office cause I can't afford private docs..so I can't just get a new pdoc.

The noise.....do any of you have problems with noises? I can't stand it to be too loud...If the kids are even just a little loud it drives me bonkers. Add to that the dog barking and the tv on and then the other day all at the same time..tv, kids, phone, someone knocked on the door, then the dog barking....I just wanted to scream go away....

The thoughts that keep racing are never around for long...the tdoc wants to know what thoughts....well I foget what they are.....its so many and so fast....

So sorry I have rambled enough......kar

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Gone insane but I will be back soon ;)

Love your tag line, "Gone insane, but I'll be back soon"!
I'm Bipolar I, but something you said made me feel like I wasn't TOTALLY nuts...
You mention noise. Man, I am SO sensitive to it and no one around me understands. Here are my worst sounds (in no particular order!):

1) A room where multiple conversations are being held. (and people can't figure out why I hate parties!)
2) The sound of a candy wrapper crinkling away for a half hour in a movie theatre (Poor husband rarely gets to see a film before its out on DVD!)
3) Someone clicking their fingernails on a counter. (Not good when you are a bank teller...)
4) Ok, there's more, but you get the idea!

I am SO glad I'm not the only one! I wonder if there are other people here with shades of Bipolar who have the same problem...
Anyone?
(And thanks again for a really good topic!!)
Bj

YES!!!
I'm Bipolar II and I have the same noise issues...multiple conversations really drive me nuts. I can't focus and usually end up isolating myself at parties, which is why I haven't gone to one in a while. Even at home or work if it gets too noisy I get really agitated.
I have noticed taking some Klonipin or other sedative seems to help if it gets really out of hand...

Noises bother me too, and I am bi-polar 1. I can't stand to hear loud boom boxes from cars. That drives me up the wall. And in stores screaming kids and people talking all at the same time bother me too. I'm an easy going person, with anxiety, so it makes me uncomfortable, that I hold in my feelings, when I just wanna tell people to quiet down. Sometimes lawn mowers and leaf blowers make me crazy. One time a neighbor was running his weedeater at 8am and I was freaking out, cause the noise was unbearable to me..
I hope your doc can help you and find the right medications. Good luck..

In the still and peacefulness
there is a state of bliss
In the peace and quiet
there is no riot
Sometimes I wish people
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[This message has been edited by u2fran (edited 09-10-2003).]