Captned
09-05-2006, 05:28 AM
Hi there,
Wow! big steps, I am so happy to read you've gone this far. My first week of sobriety was the biggest event of my life, and one of the toughest. I was at meetings, calling people and got a sponsor, I wondered how long I would feel so sick, but now that I think about it, it passed in a flash and before I knew it I had 1 month up. Now that was a turn out for the books (for me anyway), my longest period sober for 26 years...I can remember the elation I felt, in fact I mentioned to my sponsor that I felt so glad about my achievement that a few drinks wouldn't go astray.I got the visual equivalent of a smack under the ear!
Seriously though the early days are more dangerous than others (my belief) because of the huge achievement your undertaking, you will start to see your sober days as a win, and rightly so, but if your anything like me elation and joy where always celebrated with...you guessed it! a few drinks which inevitably ended up in a blackout or such. What a way to acknowledge such a milestone of sobriety, getting ones self written off! thats the insanity of this disease.
A few of the slogans took time to sink in with me, one day at a time, easy does it, live and let live etc so I just stuck by my sponsor and attended lots of meetings, in the rooms was the only place I felt comfortable.
One of my first meetings some one read the "promises" (get someone to point them out to you if they haven't already) and then at the end of the meeting came up to me, stabbed the page that was read in the book with their finger and said "these are called the PROMISES...not the PROBABILITIES", I look at him and said "UH, yeah right , Ok...thanks!"
It is with profound joy and gratitude that I can say that this was one of the many truths I have found in AA and these Promises are coming true for me day by day!.
So keep at it, don't pick up the first drink, pick up the phone. Keep going to meetings even if you hate them, do what is suggested and the agony you are experiencing now will fade and you WILL join the ranks of walking miracles! ..believe it...it will happen!!
God Bless
Wow! big steps, I am so happy to read you've gone this far. My first week of sobriety was the biggest event of my life, and one of the toughest. I was at meetings, calling people and got a sponsor, I wondered how long I would feel so sick, but now that I think about it, it passed in a flash and before I knew it I had 1 month up. Now that was a turn out for the books (for me anyway), my longest period sober for 26 years...I can remember the elation I felt, in fact I mentioned to my sponsor that I felt so glad about my achievement that a few drinks wouldn't go astray.I got the visual equivalent of a smack under the ear!
Seriously though the early days are more dangerous than others (my belief) because of the huge achievement your undertaking, you will start to see your sober days as a win, and rightly so, but if your anything like me elation and joy where always celebrated with...you guessed it! a few drinks which inevitably ended up in a blackout or such. What a way to acknowledge such a milestone of sobriety, getting ones self written off! thats the insanity of this disease.
A few of the slogans took time to sink in with me, one day at a time, easy does it, live and let live etc so I just stuck by my sponsor and attended lots of meetings, in the rooms was the only place I felt comfortable.
One of my first meetings some one read the "promises" (get someone to point them out to you if they haven't already) and then at the end of the meeting came up to me, stabbed the page that was read in the book with their finger and said "these are called the PROMISES...not the PROBABILITIES", I look at him and said "UH, yeah right , Ok...thanks!"
It is with profound joy and gratitude that I can say that this was one of the many truths I have found in AA and these Promises are coming true for me day by day!.
So keep at it, don't pick up the first drink, pick up the phone. Keep going to meetings even if you hate them, do what is suggested and the agony you are experiencing now will fade and you WILL join the ranks of walking miracles! ..believe it...it will happen!!
God Bless