bkim
09-05-2006, 04:24 PM
Its been a long day here at work and got to thinking(bad thing huh?), how many days has it been since I stopped the pill popping? Opened up the calendar and wow, Its been 83 days!!! Never thought I could go more than 3 hours without them at one time in my life. Just for the new members, I was deep into a pain pill issue for close to 2 years. Same story…was prescribed opiates for a while, then needed more and more, until it was out of control. The day before going into detox, I was given 50 vic’s and had more than 10 percs from a previous script, they were all gone within 24 hours.
I have said it before and will say it again and again, this board really helped me in so many ways, and it makes me feel good to know that I may be giving someone else hope or can help them in any way. I wish my previous posts were still on the board, but I had my email in my profile and it is against the rules here. All my previous posts have been removed. Lesson learned from the website. Anyways, I am still clean off the pills. Do I still think about them every once in a while? Sure, but they don’t pull at me like they once did. I am able to understand what they did to my life and not even consider taking them again.
So, my life after 80+ days without the pills. Amazing!!! I mean we all have bad days, but that is life. I pretty much do not take the little things for granted. I would have done this before having such an awakening through the pill thing. Work is going great, I’m working out-look and feel so much better. I have my energy back and am able to get so many things done during the day. I am able to laugh and have people laugh with me. Its ironic in that when you fist start taking the pills, you feel so good, have so much energy, feel so outgoing….Then one day everything goes the opposite.
I was once the outgoing social type…..The pills were my only friend. I would much rather veg out in front of the tv on the weekend than go out and do anything. Exercise was eating Chinese food. Ugggh.
If you are thinking there is no way that you can possibly quit this thing…Yes, you can. It is not easy but it is simple. It is just such a huge, huge weight to have taken off your shoulders when you are able to quit the habit. For example, this last Labor day weekend. We went to my Dad’s house for a family get together. We played cards, drink some beer, played cornhole, had fun with each other and the kids and I didn’t have to worry about running out of pills or coming up with a schedule so I wouldn’t run out. Sounds weird, but I’m sure there are people who are moving their heads up and down.
How did I do it? I tried the cold turkey thing, but just couldn’t handle the sickness and would always reach for the pills. Who wouldn’t? if you are so ill and the pills would make you feel better-Just a couple would make it all go away. Well, I ended up checking into a well know detox center here in Columbus. I was there for 4 days. During my detox, I kept waiting for the sickness to come and it never did. I felt pretty tired at times, but heck, that is ok. I was given sub and some other things in there. I tapered off the sub within 5 days of leaving the detox. I went directly into an Intensive Outpatient Program and we met 3 days a week for 3 hours. This was the ultimate piece of the puzzle for me making it through. It was an excellent support group and they made sure you were not using again by giving random tests.
I felt really crappy for about 3 weeks after I stopped. I wasn't really sick, but just could not concentrate on anything and was very moody and tired(very tired) during this time. It seemed it took all my energy just to do a load of laundry or something stupid like that. I started doing some exercising and BOOM!!! I felt so good!!! That was another great thing that helped. I still exercise about every day.
So, life is good. I guess I just needed to share on here today. Thanks for listening.
Tim
I have said it before and will say it again and again, this board really helped me in so many ways, and it makes me feel good to know that I may be giving someone else hope or can help them in any way. I wish my previous posts were still on the board, but I had my email in my profile and it is against the rules here. All my previous posts have been removed. Lesson learned from the website. Anyways, I am still clean off the pills. Do I still think about them every once in a while? Sure, but they don’t pull at me like they once did. I am able to understand what they did to my life and not even consider taking them again.
So, my life after 80+ days without the pills. Amazing!!! I mean we all have bad days, but that is life. I pretty much do not take the little things for granted. I would have done this before having such an awakening through the pill thing. Work is going great, I’m working out-look and feel so much better. I have my energy back and am able to get so many things done during the day. I am able to laugh and have people laugh with me. Its ironic in that when you fist start taking the pills, you feel so good, have so much energy, feel so outgoing….Then one day everything goes the opposite.
I was once the outgoing social type…..The pills were my only friend. I would much rather veg out in front of the tv on the weekend than go out and do anything. Exercise was eating Chinese food. Ugggh.
If you are thinking there is no way that you can possibly quit this thing…Yes, you can. It is not easy but it is simple. It is just such a huge, huge weight to have taken off your shoulders when you are able to quit the habit. For example, this last Labor day weekend. We went to my Dad’s house for a family get together. We played cards, drink some beer, played cornhole, had fun with each other and the kids and I didn’t have to worry about running out of pills or coming up with a schedule so I wouldn’t run out. Sounds weird, but I’m sure there are people who are moving their heads up and down.
How did I do it? I tried the cold turkey thing, but just couldn’t handle the sickness and would always reach for the pills. Who wouldn’t? if you are so ill and the pills would make you feel better-Just a couple would make it all go away. Well, I ended up checking into a well know detox center here in Columbus. I was there for 4 days. During my detox, I kept waiting for the sickness to come and it never did. I felt pretty tired at times, but heck, that is ok. I was given sub and some other things in there. I tapered off the sub within 5 days of leaving the detox. I went directly into an Intensive Outpatient Program and we met 3 days a week for 3 hours. This was the ultimate piece of the puzzle for me making it through. It was an excellent support group and they made sure you were not using again by giving random tests.
I felt really crappy for about 3 weeks after I stopped. I wasn't really sick, but just could not concentrate on anything and was very moody and tired(very tired) during this time. It seemed it took all my energy just to do a load of laundry or something stupid like that. I started doing some exercising and BOOM!!! I felt so good!!! That was another great thing that helped. I still exercise about every day.
So, life is good. I guess I just needed to share on here today. Thanks for listening.
Tim