Good Morning eerrrrrr, Afternoon!
As the title says, I am on day 5. I did not sleep well at all last night. Well I should say, once I did fall asleep I was fine. I fell asleep at 1:00is and got up with my husband at 6am.:yawn: When I got up I was dragging of course and felt like :dizzy:
I went to a job interview at an employment agency and the woman that interviewed me (nice young lady) thought me to be perfect for the position she told me over the phone about yesterday. She is going to forward my resume to the company and set up a second interview with them. She gave me a few details about the position and from what she said, I think I would like it. I'll know more after the next interview.
After that I went to a AA meeting. I got there about 40 mins early which was good because I was able to chat with a few people and introduce myself to them. The topic was the 9th tradition and very interesting. This is the first meeting that I didnt cry and actually laughed and smiled. :)
Got home, had some lunch and took a two hour nap. I prayed that I wouldnt have any scary dreams. Well, I didnt have any scarye dreams, just weird ones. I dreamt that a friend was over and she was showing me her cockaiel that just learned how to talk. I was holding it and it said hello. Looked like a regular cocktiel at first glance. When I looked at it again, it had the head of a old man. :eek: Kinda funny and I am chuckleing now even.
I feel about the same exept some physical symtoms returned, - I will spare you the details, but put it this way, my bottom wasnt up.:rolleyes: I woke up in a major fog once again- hey, but no headache, and I am not so weapy. I'm sure thats not over during my recovery.
Gonna go feed my doggies, get dressed and hit a meeting. I have no desire to drink what-so-ever but I am trying to fill my "tool box" for when and if the addiction rears its ugly head. Plus, I feel very safe there.

Talk later................

Marilyn:wave:

well done,you may not feel any better but you sound brilliant you are so positive and im sure if you re read day 2 you will see what i mean,looking forward to hearing from you on day 6,sadmum

well done,you may not feel any better but you sound brilliant you are so positive and im sure if you re read day 2 you will see what i mean,looking forward to hearing from you on day 6,sadmum
Hey Mum,
Thanks for the reply. I appreciate it. I went to the 5:30 meeting and it was good. My sponsor was there. Your sapposed to increase your sugar intake when you stop drinking alcohol and I dont think I have been having enough. I had two cookies there and I got soooo dizzy. My husband doesnt know it yet, but he is going to get me ice cream later after diner.:p
Is it a daughter or son that you have that is in recovery? I cant remember. Imagine that! :D

Marilyn

Sorry-- dup

Hang in there Marilyn. Everyone is different, and since today has been such a struggle for you, that has to mean that tomorrow will be a great day for you. I'm really proud of you.
I've got a bunch of school stuff to do w/my daughter, so I've got to go, but my thoughts and prayers are with you!

Deb

Sometimes my head is so fuzzy i cant rememer if it was son or daughter,daughter,but seriously i cant remember the last 4yrs of my life only her addiction,and im so thankful she is now in recovery all i want to do is to encourage others to be there too,love reading your threads and find such great pleasure in your success,sad mum
ps she finds n/a a great help

You're doing great girlfriend!! I am sooooooooooooooo proud of you!! Your words are an inspiration!! I can't wait to hear about the next interview!! I told you the Lord would send a perfect job your way....and he has!! What a blessing your life has become!!! and this is just the beginning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :wave:

Thanks Flint. Weird, I swear I was just thinking that maybe the Lord has some really neat stuff planned for me and how this is such a huge new beginning for me. I'll tell you this, if I dont get this job its because he has other plans for me. I am trying to let go and let Him.

I've been in trouble with the law before and today was the first time I did not lie on an application. It was right there in front of the interviewers face. We talked (not about the law trouble) but about the job and other things for about a half an hour. I'm not lying anymore. Even about the small stuff. I am really working on that. There are other examples but I believe you get the idea.
Thanks for listening and responding to my posts.

One of these days I am going to write up my story and post it here. Maybe I will start tomorrow. It will take me a while.
Have a good night Flint.

Marilyn:wave:

Sometimes my head is so fuzzy i cant rememer if it was son or daughter,daughter,but seriously i cant remember the last 4yrs of my life only her addiction,and im so thankful she is now in recovery all i want to do is to encourage others to be there too,love reading your threads and find such great pleasure in your success,sad mum
ps she finds n/a a great help

Glad to hear I am not the only one with a fuzzy head. :dizzy: I am glad that she finds comfort in NA. I have a son that will be 21 in November and he has never given me any grief with drugs/alcohol. Lord do I pray for him. Maybe he saw enough of my crap that I "scared him streight". If that were/is true, and this may sound weird, anything I have lost, done, ruiened, etc would all be worth it if he never picks up. And stranger yet, I would do it all again to if I could keep the addiction pain from him. In other words, I would live an addited life if I were guaranteed he would never go threw what a alcoholic/addict goes through. Maybe I will have a different opinion once my head clears and I become more educated but at this very moment, I truly feel that way. Rambleing now, but its kinda hard to explain.
On that note, off to bed for me. Or, with the dreams I have been having maybe I should just say, "off to the movies I go".

Nite.
Marilyn:wave:

Hi again Marilyn,

You sound so strong, and so positive. You are so right too.... God does have big plans for you, and you're opening yourself up to that positive world now that you are sober. You're doing so awesome going to meetings and all too! Wow. Did you ever tell your hubby? How'd that go?

Well, back to work tomorrow. I will miss reading the board all of the time. My company is very big brother-ish, so no way in hell can I log on here from there. Too bad though. I'll miss y'all. Will check in tomorrow night. I felt good today but man, I am WIPED out! I really got more done by noon than a whole weekend on pills. And ran every errand I've had stacking up in the afternoon, so it's been a blur of activity. Now my mind and body are craving rest. Sorry about your bad dreams. I've just had a lot of waking up, hot then cold, waking up every hour or 2 looking at the alarm clock. I slept good last night but was up too late and too early, like you.

Good night friends. Peace.

Deb

HI Marilyn, sounds like your going great guns! it only gets better!. I used to have some wild weird dreams also. I heard about drinking dreams early in my recovery but never had any until a few months ago, they where scarey. I'd wake up thinking i'd blew my recovery until I realized it was only a dream, powerful disease when it tries to seduce you in your sleep! I made it a point of having a bowl of ice cream every night, it really helped, so do chocolate milk shakes, I laughed when told this by one member but it does work and takes away the urge for a beer ( ever had a beer followed by a milk shake or vice versa).

Really glad to hear your going well, keep it up.

Captned.

Hey Deb, just in case you check in here before work, I want to say have a good day and I will be thinking about you.

Marilyn
P,S, Congrats on day 6 !!

HI Marilyn, sounds like your going great guns! it only gets better!. I used to have some wild weird dreams also. I heard about drinking dreams early in my recovery but never had any until a few months ago, they where scarey. I'd wake up thinking i'd blew my recovery until I realized it was only a dream, powerful disease when it tries to seduce you in your sleep! I made it a point of having a bowl of ice cream every night, it really helped, so do chocolate milk shakes, I laughed when told this by one member but it does work and takes away the urge for a beer ( ever had a beer followed by a milk shake or vice versa).

Really glad to hear your going well, keep it up.

Captned.
Hey Captned,
It's not the drinking dream that has me worried, I was having horrible nightmares. I thought maybe was hallucinating. Not sure if I was away or sleeping. Really creapy!
I did have a drinking dream the other night, we were at a football game and the person I was with (dont remember who) said lets get some beer- not even my DOC. I said, "no, I dont want to drink, I cant, the person said just have a wine cooler then- again, not my DOC.

Have a good day Cap.

Marilyn:wave: :wave:

Congrats on day 6 to you too!
ttyl!

deb

congrats on day five. five days was truly a miracle for me. the foggy head, and racing thoughts goes away in time depending on how bad you were, but it does get better. i didn,t believe this when i first stopped, but i had no choice but to believe my "fellows". and it did. i mean for the most part. i have 8 mos. and i still have a bad short memory, but it is better than the first few weeks. i didn't get sick over night. i just keep doing what i am doing, and as long as it keeps me sober (AA) i'll keep doing it. i just keep in mind the way it was, and how it is now, and i always choose to keep living how i am now. you know, it's funny; i used to ponder "should i drink today and get sicker, and make things worse, or not drink and be productive today?" that was a decision I had a problem with, i didn't know it was the cunning, baffeling, and powerful part of this dis-ease working against me. and for me, it is still in me, and will remain there from now on. good luck.