:blob_fire i will look like this soon some one please help me - you see ive been seen what i thought were doctors and they put me on some tablets called quietiapine but i now realise they work for the devil and they all want me to burn in hell so if i go again i shall not speak and i dont want them to know im onto them but i am everybodys against me i can here the people who live above saying they want me dead they dont like me if i go out people are giving me funny looks all the time can anyone else hear voices telling them to kill people its driving me crazy i feel like im going :mad: the devil is out to get me he sends all is little people through the sockets so ive taped them and the little people stick to the tape but i dont think the devil knows this - do u think i,m mad or evil please someone help me

You are most certainly not evil or mad. The medication they have given you will help if you keep taking it. Please try to believe that this is true, and although you think they work for the devil, the doctors really are trying to help you. You are going through a difficult time and things can get better. The voices you are hearing will go if you continue to take your medication. You are a very brave and coherent woman, and the fact that you have had the courage to post on this message board shows that you are a strong enough person to challenge the voices and your thoughts,

Best wishes and big hugs

r12las xx

:wave: :angel: Schizo definitely, if you don't trust these doctors & some you definitely can't trust , go see different doctors.Tell atleast one therapist everything you are feeling & thinking otherwise the medicine will not help you at all. I beg you please seek help as soon as possible ask for Seroquel & Depakote ER if you can get it & take it I bet you will feel better soon.Or check yourself into a mental hospital then your friend won't be supporting you & stay there until you feel better. That also may help you get your benefits sooner.Usually it will.Good luck & I hope you are better soon.:angel: :wave:

will the tablets really help with my voices? :confused: only when i don't want people around me anymore i cant just pop a pill & they disappear. will i stop hearing tem altogether:confused:
my parents & children say i am stupid when i tell them i see the devil & his little people, they tell me he's not there & this really upsets me, they don't realise how frightened i am. They tell me that the people living above don't want me dead, i can hear them why are they doing this across me, they say people aren't giving me funny looks i can see with my own eyes their faces distorting in front of me, giving me funny looks, my family are making out im mad, & they keep taking the stickies of the sockets, this really really upsets me because the little people will end up taking over my house & everythin, i just want to tanku for teling me im not mad or evil, at least somebody believes me:wave: :)

You are not stupid, because they are really there in your mind. You can see them. Just because you can see them does not mean that everyone else can, and also it does not mean that they are actually there.
Your mind sees them, and that is very scary for you. Medication can definately help. It doesnt help when they remove the stickies because when they do it makes you very frightened. You have to start trusting the fact that your mind may not always being truthful to you. Brains are very complicated and you can't always believe what they are telling you. Is there a tiny posssiblility that you can believe that your parents and children are right? Its like taking a vote. If the majority don't see them, then surely there is a tiny possibility even though they seem so real to you that they might not be there? Do you trust your parents and children to tell you the truth? If there is the slightest posssibility that that you can try and trust what they are thinking, then take the medication and trust that these thoughts will go away. Its a bit like the 'monster in the closet' to a child. The child may be convinced without any doubt that the 'monster' exists even though you the parent can show them otherwise. I don't doubt for one moment that you see the devil and his little helpers, and that this is very frightening, as is the distorting faces, but would life not be better if you could think to yourself about the possibility that they are not actually there. From what I can see of peoples previous experiences, the right medication in the right dose can make your life so much more manageable and less frightening.
I really feel for you, and hope that somewhere inside you, you can try to trust what your loved ones think may have some truth in it, and even though they might not be going the right way about it, they really do have your best interests at heart and with their love and support you can find some peace and be able to live without fear,

Best wishes and big hugs

r12las xx

Like all before me have said, you are not evil or mad. I think it's really important that you continue to take your medications on a regular basis and find people who you can trust. I know with that combination, you will feel better and be helped. It's important to stay on the medication, though - so remember that. There are people out there who won't think you are evil or mad, and as I said, you definitely aren't. :) Good luck.

Hi, I had the over-religous thing myself. I kept thinking I was going to burn in hell as a punishment for my sins. Sometimes I could hear the devil/god speaking thoough me in my head. I would lay awake at night terrified because i thought I was going to burn for infinity.

It helps to try and think of other religions if you can, like Buddhism or Paganism, which helps steer your thoughts away from apocolyptic/damnation scenarios.

It worked for me anyway, i ended up communing with animals in my pschosis and believing i was taking on the forms of animals like cats and eagles. A lot better then the Christian damnation nightmare.

Hope you are ok, please keep in touch

r12las xx :wave: