cortney...
thanks for your input, but it's not like i have a small appetite. it used to be quite normal, and i just cannot eat 3 times a day. i am scared to death that if i do i will be just really fat. since i posted that last question, i have not eaten but once. i am so hungry, but i just cannot bring myself to eat. i just look at myself, and once i do that, i just lose my appetite. i feel that if i eat nothing at all, it will be better, i will be more attractive. i try to eat, but i will just look at my food. it is as if there is another person inside of me, controlling me. but i feel really good when i don't eat, cuz i know i am not putting on extra weight. and then when i excercise, i feel very accomplished. but i feel as though even if i wanted to, there would be no turning back now.

There is always turning back-in a sense-you need to take control and get yourself some help along with prayer and get better-eating disorders are deadly and as you know you aren't in control of them.
I wish you the best of luck hon.
God Bless.