I know how you feel. I have cut myself off from a lot of my friends, because I feel like nobody understands me. When I went out with my friends the other night, they said how thin I was but not to lose any more weight. Then they kept on about it, so I basically ate to shut them up and knew I would get rid of it later. My roommate doesn't say anything about it to me. She sees me sometimes doing situps late at night, and just looks at me and rolls her eyes. To answer your question I am 5'8 and I weigh around 125. I don't throw up that much, I just try not to eat more than one small thing. Then I take the laxatives and exercise a lot. If I feel I ate too much, then I throw up. I used to be a fairly open person, who talks to my friends and family about almost anything. Now I find I keep to myself a lot more. I guess I'm afraid they will find out some of the things I am doing and stop me. To me it is just part of my daily routine. If you ever feel like talking or anything, feel free to email me at Lost_Found3@excite.com.