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sweetone
01-13-2001, 12:08 AM
I recently separated with my husband a little over 2 months ago, which is something that has completely devastated me. At first, I couldnt eat then after a while, when I did, I would make myself sick on purpose. Now, whenever I eat, no matter what it is I eat, I make myself sick. I try not to eat at all, but when I do, I feel the need to get it out. I have lost some weight, which has made me look better but am still quite a way from "normal". I either starve myself or binge and purge. I didnt think too much of it till recently. I told my husband, who I am still very close to, and have come to realize that stopping isnt as easy I thought it would be.
It has only been 1 day since I told him and when he took me out to eat and wouldnt allow me to go to the bathroom afterwards, I felt horrible. I wanted so much to make myself sick. Today I ate nothing, and hadnt since yesterday morning, until dinner, which I completely overate then threw it up. I feel guilty and out of control.
Am I just depressed and going through a faze? How do I know I have some sort of eating disorder?
Any and all opinions and/or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks...

Tricky
01-13-2001, 02:38 PM
Only a doctor or psychologist can really diagnose you, but you are exhibiting symptoms of an eating disorder which you probably already know. I am not a doctor, just someone who had an eating disorder for several yrs and beat it. Since you didn't mention experiencing this before your separation, my guess is that your binging/purging/starving cycle is directly related to what is going on in your relationship with your husband. An eating disorder is very often a symptom of something else. A lot of people have control issues that manifest themselves in an eating disorder -- I know I did. When you feel like you can't control anything else in your life you can control what you eat right?

Do you maybe think that your husband will be so concerned about your eating that all of the other problems you share will fall away? Maybe he'll see how upset you are and you'll get back together? For whatever reasons, you ARE hurting yourself. You can cause permanent damage to your body by binging and purging. Eating disorders can go from mild to very severe very quickly. I think that you're already experiencing how difficult it is to break the cycle. You have taken the first step by admitting that something is wrong, but please speak to a doctor about what you're going through. Eating disorders are very difficult to beat on your own. Take care of yourself!

 
 
 




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