I don't know what to do with myself...I'm 19 and the only day that has passed since I was 13 that I didn't throw up are the days I don't eat at all. I know I need help....I just don't know if I CAN be helped. I don't remember what normal is. The only peace of mind I find is the thought of running away from everything and everyone I know. My brain is spinning out of control. I can't even hold a conversation anymore. I am alienating everyone. I quit my job, I have over $1000 in bills every month and I just quit my job. I don't know whats wrong with me. I have never felt this close to the edge. I don't even know who I am anymore. Nobody understands what I mean when I try to explain. They just tell me I'm weird or even better,"crazy" I hear it everyday....I'm really starting to believe it and I'm questioning things I've never questioned before. Please help if you think you have some answers...I'm truly lost.

Originally posted by Nessanna:
I don't know what to do with myself...I'm 19 and the only day that has passed since I was 13 that I didn't throw up are the days I don't eat at all. I know I need help....I just don't know if I CAN be helped. I don't remember what normal is. The only peace of mind I find is the thought of running away from everything and everyone I know. My brain is spinning out of control. I can't even hold a conversation anymore. I am alienating everyone. I quit my job, I have over $1000 in bills every month and I just quit my job. I don't know whats wrong with me. I have never felt this close to the edge. I don't even know who I am anymore. Nobody understands what I mean when I try to explain. They just tell me I'm weird or even better,"crazy" I hear it everyday....I'm really starting to believe it and I'm questioning things I've never questioned before. Please help if you think you have some answers...I'm truly lost.

First of all, I want you to know that my heart goes out to you! You sound like your life has been a living Hell. But now is the time to change! You have made a very hard step and that is admitting that you have a problem. I know that you don't like the way you are and where you are going. SO CHANGE IT NOW! Start today! Get help! I know that it is easier said then done...but I believe that anyone can change if they really want to. You sound like you want to get better and become a better person...so do it! Email me if you want! Jenspace@hotmail.com

Love, Jen