Hello:

Never really experienced death before until this pass January when my father passed away on January 27th, 2006 exactly a week after his 68th birthday. He died of Kidney Cancer which he was diagnosed with back in May of 1993. He had a strong will to live but after having a couple of bad falls this past December he never could quite recover from those and was finally bed ridden during the last two weeks of his life. He was surrounded by family members at the time of his death. While we were prepared for his passing its still extremly hard thing to watch. Its like he took his last breath and then his body jerked like the soul was finally free of pain. I miss him terribly and still grieve for him. It will be hard on us (my mom, sister, and I) especially with the up coming holidays. He loved Christmas. While the hurt of losing my dad will never go away, just knowing that he is finally free of pain helps ease the pain to some extent and I know he's watching over us.

Thank you for allowing me to write this.

Just know that you're not alone. My Dad passed away in November of 2000 and I know how you feel. It's just been in the last year that I was able to get through the holidays without being miserable. My problem now is that my Mom just passed away last Sunday (I have an earlier post on this same board) and I can't even get through this weekend. How am I going to get through any holidays?

Anytime you want to talk I'll be here.

Robinbird

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. My heart goes out to you. You always think your parents always being around. Just know that your mom and dad are finally together again and watching over you as well. The only thing we can do is remember the good times we have with them and know that they would want us to be happy and move on. I'm here if you ever need to talk.

You're right, but I miss them so much it hurts. We just have to take one day at a time I guess. But I sure wish the tears would stop, they always come at the worst times. People in stores, etc, must think I'm nuts.

Hang in there and I'm here if you want to talk.

was looking for advice on greif and time lines etc ... came across this forum. My Dad passed away January 28th 2006 and at 34 years old I thought I would cope better than I am. I feel like a little child somedays that can't cope. Some days I am ok and think I am getting there, other days I feel as depressed, sad and lonely as I did back on the 28th. My Dad had fought a long battle with Parkinsons and lots of strokes .. he chose his time to pass he decided he had had enough and refused to go back to hospital. There were days were I felt like saying to the nursing home staff I want him to go to hospital to keep him alive but I knew they would patch him up for a short space of time. I respected his decision that he wanted to die but god I wish I had been selfish somedays to have kept him here a little longer. Was wondering how you are feeling now? Is it a little easier for you as time goes on?
It is comforting to know you are not alone:angel:

First, let me express my sympathies on the loss of your dad. I lost my dad 22 months and I too, thought I would handle it better than I have (I am now 46; husband; no kids; mother; siblings). Losing him was the absolute worst thing I've ever experienced. The feelings you express are so in tune with the feelings I've had for all these months: "I feel like a little child somedays that can't cope"; "Some days I am ok and think I am getting there, other days I feel as depressed, sad and lonely as I did back on the 28th."

Although I enjoy being alone, sometimes that is the worst thing for me. I just lay here on the couch and cry. I just wish God would take me so that I could be with my dad.

With time, things get "easier." I think one of the hardest things is getting used to someone not being around. All I have left are memories and that is terribly hard to deal with.

I find this forum so comforting because I know that I am not alone and I see that people are going through the same things as I.