Hi Everyone,

I just wanted to say that I am sorry that I haven't been responding to people's posts and emails lately. I am in the process of moving to across the country to start a new job. It is a stressful time for me and very busy. I have been starting to have a tough time lately again. I stopped taking my antidepressants because I don't want to be on them, I also know I am finally starting to gain weight, my size 3 and 5 pants are almost to snug to wear. I know that should be a good thing, but it has really upset me and I feel like I am going to go back to my old habits. Anyway, I am sorry that I haven't responded. I don't mean to sound selfish, but some of the posts I have been reading on the site are working negatively against me. I am reading what other people are going through and it is making me feel like going back to my old ways and that just isn't healthy for me right now. I would like to go take a handful of laxatives and diuretics right now. The only thing that is stopping me is that I have been pill free for one month today and that is hard to start over again.

Take care everyone.
Sarah

Sarah: I'm so sorry that you've been stressed out lately. Stress can cause one to have depression and depression can lead us back into our harmful behaviors. You may need to get back on the anti-depressants. They will help you to cope with the depression and stress. I know how you feel about them. My husband and I didn't want Julia to start taking them, but they have helped her a lot. She is not as depressed as she was before.

Please email if you would like to talk. In case you don't still have my email address, it is janet_col1271@yahoo.com

Please don't go back to the laxatives. You have been doing so well. I lift your name up in prayer each day and ask God to give you the strength you need to COPE with the stresses in your life and to give you total healing in your body and mind.

I care so much for you and the others on the board. My wish for you and the others is that God will greatly bless each of you, give you peace, and that he will show his love for each of you.

Keep fighting! Write when you can.

Love ya! --Janet