My boyfriend of four 1/2 years and I broke up a month ago. Since it was not a horrible breakup and we are still in contact somewhat I don't have anger to fuel me and help me get on with life. I can't "hate" him b/c I still love him. I feel like my life in in limbo and my ED had gone crazy. At first I just had no appetite and did not want to eat at all. Then that worried me so i began to make myself eat. However, the past few days Ihave been eating out of control .. I know I am eating out of lonliness, hurt, and sadness but I can't seem to stop. I am terrified of gaining weight yet I keep soothing myself with food. It is an everyday battle and it is driving me crazy. Any advice?

Wow! 4 1/2 years, I can see how that would be bad!! You learn to count on a person being there and then they're not so you turn to food b/c you know it will always be there for you. I do that too! Making yourself eat was good exept you didn't deal with the underlying issues that made you want to starve yourself in the first place so maybe thats why you went to the other end of the scale so to speak and started binging. The fact that you realize why you're eating so much is good! My advice is to give it a little time since the break-up is so new and if you're still binging or starving or anything along those lines I would try to deal with what's behind the reason you're doing that or get help from a therapist.
Lily

lily--
thanks for the advice. I do see a therapist for my ED about every month and half and have an appointment next week. I can't wait. I'm sure I'll give her an earful! :-)
You are right about facing up to the problems that are leadign me to starve and/or overeat, but it seems most of them involve my ex. How can i work through them when he is no longer in the converstaion so to speak. ??? It is so frustrating. I guess most of it is that I feel like a failure. I thought he was the one and I feel like I could not keep him. I know it's irrational but it is a huge blow to my self-confidence. Thanks again for responding. :-)