reavlin
09-26-2006, 09:04 PM
Well, i just gotta let this out ...so here it goes..
I think the depression , and muscle aches hit fisrts then i graduated to my muscles twitching, a lot. earlier this year i had torn some muscles in my neck , and i think that kicked it into gear.
i'd been to the doctor for chest pains and they , said it was my chest wall, or muscles hurting .
i was on the computer looking up diseases that cause muscle twitching, and of course first one was ALS. Scared the crap out of me..and the anxiety kicked in, so i made an appointment with my doctor , who said wasnt the way ALS showed itself,..drink plenty of water, take vitamins..etc
2 months later my anxiety and depression are off the charts, because my muscle twitching hasnt stopped,i have burning sensations, aches, stabbing pains in my arms, so i go to the nero who tells me the same thing , and to give it 8 more weeks and itll go away,
Well it didnt, im twitching now as i type ..lol
by now ive noticed that i have a crawling sensation on my face and my lips tremble...and twitch , go back to the neuro and he acts like im faking saying that i have too many symptoms.
well now my anxiety and depression get together with the feeling that maybe im losing my mind.
And i get tinnunitus, and for two weeks i had teeth or jaw tremors, hard to explain how that feels, luckily that went away.
I have to explain for this next part that i was abused by an uncle as a child
and i had know for awhile that i had OCD, just small stuff like rechecking the doors, stove, etc.
no big deal
with the by then 4 months of anxiety, added to the deppresion, mixed with the OCD, feeling crazy, added to a episode of law and order svu show,
started a new phase of OCD that i had never even heard of, the Bad thoughts syndrome.
That i could hurt my child because of what happened to me in the past, that developed into , just hurting a loved one.
I just thank god for his help , and for his son jesus
because i know i couldnt have made it alone.
I have never been confronted with anything in my life like this , but with lots of prayer ive started get a grip on myself.
I think the depression , and muscle aches hit fisrts then i graduated to my muscles twitching, a lot. earlier this year i had torn some muscles in my neck , and i think that kicked it into gear.
i'd been to the doctor for chest pains and they , said it was my chest wall, or muscles hurting .
i was on the computer looking up diseases that cause muscle twitching, and of course first one was ALS. Scared the crap out of me..and the anxiety kicked in, so i made an appointment with my doctor , who said wasnt the way ALS showed itself,..drink plenty of water, take vitamins..etc
2 months later my anxiety and depression are off the charts, because my muscle twitching hasnt stopped,i have burning sensations, aches, stabbing pains in my arms, so i go to the nero who tells me the same thing , and to give it 8 more weeks and itll go away,
Well it didnt, im twitching now as i type ..lol
by now ive noticed that i have a crawling sensation on my face and my lips tremble...and twitch , go back to the neuro and he acts like im faking saying that i have too many symptoms.
well now my anxiety and depression get together with the feeling that maybe im losing my mind.
And i get tinnunitus, and for two weeks i had teeth or jaw tremors, hard to explain how that feels, luckily that went away.
I have to explain for this next part that i was abused by an uncle as a child
and i had know for awhile that i had OCD, just small stuff like rechecking the doors, stove, etc.
no big deal
with the by then 4 months of anxiety, added to the deppresion, mixed with the OCD, feeling crazy, added to a episode of law and order svu show,
started a new phase of OCD that i had never even heard of, the Bad thoughts syndrome.
That i could hurt my child because of what happened to me in the past, that developed into , just hurting a loved one.
I just thank god for his help , and for his son jesus
because i know i couldnt have made it alone.
I have never been confronted with anything in my life like this , but with lots of prayer ive started get a grip on myself.