i am creating a short program for television concerning Julia Kristeva's writings upon abjection and looking for H.I.V+ people to interview. H.I.V would appear to have formed a sort of social abjection that cannot be 'flushed away'. societies response to H.I.V sufferers is one of ignorance, prejudice and a wish for them to just disappear. syphallis was seen as gods punishment for promiscuity but even with this social stigma, those that suffered from it were not seen as outcasts, so why are the sufferers of H.I.V? if H.I.V was not thought of as specifically a homosexual disease to begin with, would there be a stigma attached to it now? H.I.V sufferers are treated much as leppers during the 19th century, with fear and ignorance, and although i understand the function of the disease and how it is transfered, i too harbour a sort of innate fear of being near people with the disease. this is one of the reasons i wish to interview people with the disease, to understand where my problem (a problem i would not have with any other disease) has originated and to try to inform the public and break social barriers. do men fear this disease because of the social stigma attached to it concerning homosexuality? is it subconsciously conected to the 'am i gay?' fear that many heterosexual men have? i have many more questions, and would appreciate offers of possible questions from those reading this piece. does anyone know where i can get in touch with any hospitals or trusts that can perhaps be of assistance to me. does anyone know of a couple in a relationship where one of them has H.I.V and the other doesn't? i would really be interested in the reasons for staying together, the pressures upon the relationship and their opinions concerning social stigma. thank you for reading, please respond if you can. london weasel x x