Okay, so, yeah....... as some people might have gathered from my posts over the last few days, I've been very VERY depressed...

but.....

Now, suddenly I feel fine. Really. And I'm like, what was the big fuss about?

So it makes me question whether I really even have depression... I feel like it was just my mind tricking me into it, only so that I would make a big show of it (well, I talked to my mom about it last night and we were both very upset) and now I'm fine, so I feel stupid for ever having said I was so depressed/suffering/etc..

How is it that my perspective today can be so radically different from what it was 24 hours ago?

Not that I'm complaining exactly.. I like being in a good/okay mood!!! But it makes the depressive state seem that much less real.. Like it was all in my imagination or something.

Does anyone else ever feel this way?

yes i have that feeling, i wonder sometimes if i'm bipolar, friends call and they can tell what mood i'm in and say things like "oh,you sound really goood today" so it's like, well what did i sound like yesterday? i don't know what mood ill be in when i wake up, i make plans then cancel because my mood changed, i don't have manic episodes and i think that's part of bipolar, so i don't know what to think! just going day by day kj

I think that's perfectly normal and it doesn't mean you don't have depression or it is somehow "false" when you feel depressed.

Could it be that you and your mom had a productive talk that helped you feel better?

That sort of thing happens to me all the time. I'll be "fine" for several days, weeks, even months and then all of a sudden I hit a bad patch and I'm thinking "where the heck did that come from?" Or I'll be in a depression for a long period of time and all of sudden I wake up one morning feeling just fine. :rolleyes: I think it's "normal"

Lennon,
Glad to know I'm not the only one!!
Being bright and cheery is fine.... but it's also nice to know why/where it stems from.
I was going to start seeing my therapist 2x a week, but now I'm not even sure that's necessary anymore.

Yeah, I've always felt that's it's better to know why I feel the way I do. If I'm depressed and don't know why it just makes me feel worse. If I'm feeling good and cheery I don't worry about the why's, I just accept what is. At least I'm feeling good and that's enough for me!

This past week has been up and down, mostly down (and I mean way down), and the ups have been not really ups.... more like small respites of light in all the darkness. And of course I can't think of a single good reason why I feel the way I do. I think I'm just more comfortable when I'm down. It's more "normal" for me and it's what I'm most used to.

Well, take care Wandering. It's always good to hear from you.

I go through periods where it feels like nothing will ever work out and then bang it is over. Unfortunately a few hours or days I will start to have suicidal thoughts out of nowhere then I need to fight like hell, then the circle repeats itself

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