dear all
I can't go on any more. it's not just the sickness of my ed that it is getting to me it is the whole thing. I can't do anything any more. I can't eat, sleep, smile , pretty much live without having this hang over my head and hold me back from all my dreams. I'm only 14 and i don't see my life going on. I tried to kill myself before over this and well.......maybe i will again. please help.
luv
luver

Luver-
Don't give up! I promise that life does get better. We all have our moments when we want to "throw in the towel" and just quit. But if you do that then you are letting your ED overcome you. And you are stronger than that! Think about all the people you love...you're family, friends, etc. You don't want them to be sad too! Life is beautiful if you make it that way. You only live once so make it the best life possible! God bless!
Love, Jen
jenspace@hotmail.com

Please don't give in yet. What ED do you have? There is good about hitting rock bottom and that is that you can't go any lower. What do have to lose by trying to overhall your life?

First, give up your ED. What do you have to lose by eating more? If you get fat and miserable you can always kill yourself later. Be honest with people, you'd be surprised how much people you don't think would understand at all would value and affirm your feelings.

Seek God. He really can help you when all the world seems like a cold miserable black fog. There are many Bible verses to cling to in such times of need. Some of my favorites are: Hebrews 13:5, Matthew 14:27-32, Proverbs 3:5&6, and the best of all:

'"For I know the plans that I have for you," declares the Lord,"Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" -Jeremiah 29:11

Please ask for help. There is absolutely no shame in it. I used to think that I shouldn't ask for help, just wait for my parents or someone else to notice that I needed help and give it to me. I'm not completely sure that I know why. I guess that I figured that if I asked for help that I was being selfish and it was embarassing, but I showed that I was miserable and let them decide that I needed help, well then it was their responsiblity to get me help. This is not true. Sit down and honestly talk to your parents, what do you have to lose? They will definately not think any less of you if you ask for help than if you commit suicide. It shows very strong character to be willing to ask for help when we need it.

Things only go slowly uphill from where you are. People say that the teen years are the best years of your life, that's the biggest bs out there. Maybe it's true for 5% of people, but for the vast majority the clouds clear a little more each year that you get older. There is so much in your future for you to enjoy. You will get married, have kids, bake Christmas cookies with them, go on romantic weekend trips with your husband, have grandkids, sit on a porch in your old age and watch the sun set. You will think back to this time in your life and be so glad that you just made it through so that you could enjoy all the things that you have waiting for you in your future.

Depression is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. Ask for help. Do it in a letter to you mom or dad if you have to. Depression in many cases is a lot like diabetes. Would you expect someone with diabetes to be able to get better and control their disease by simply trying as hard as they could? Would you think less of them because they asked for help and said that they needed some medication? Of course not! The same is true about biological depression. There is chemical that for some reason, perhaps puberty, your brain isn't producing and it's a disease. You need medication to fix the disease. It's as as simple as that.

If you get medication and couseling you will see such a turn around. It is literally like you are asleep and then you wake up. Like being a toddler who's interested and curious in the whole world again.
After all, you're at the point where you have nothing to lose by trying something, right?

firstly, I just want to say that Cloudy, you inspired me so much when you wrote that. But for luver, before I got true help, I hit rock bottom. And I tried to kill myself too. I ended up in the er and in the hospital for a couple of days, and I then realzied that there was so much much more to live for. I know the feeling of not thinking there is any reason to live. I know the feeling of waking up in the morning and just wanting to sleep cuz nothing else matters. And it's the worst feeling in the world. It actually turned out for me that I had a chemical imbalance and that is why I felt so sad. Now I am on paxil and my life seems a million times brighter. But I wouldn't have known that if I didn't ask. You have so much more to live for. It might not seem that way right now, but once you seek the right help, you'll understand. Please, don't try to kill yourself, try to get help instead. I'd be happy to help you in any way I can or to just talk with you. keep your head and courage sweetie! you really can do it.
lots of love,
Rachel
rachdaar@optonline.net

hey
I don't think that i can talk to anyone they just don't understand. I tried talking to my parents but i get to scared and besides they are the ones who tell me that i am fat and that i need to lose wheight. who can i talk to?
luv
luver

Luver, killing yourself wont solve anything! Please. I've tried it a few times and it just wont help. We're all here for you and we do understand. Others might not but we do. Please don't give up.

luver, first of all, for support you can definately come here and talk!! but sweetie, you really need to talk to someone who can really help you. Do you have like, a guidance counsler from school or someone you can talk to? do you want me to help you find someone in your area you can talk to? please, find someone who can help, don't give up and don't hurt yourself. You have so much more to live for! And if nothing else, live for us here who care about you!!!
Luv u!
Rachel

Luver,
Please PLEASE don't kill yourself! It really isn't the answer. You may not think that anyone cares for you but they do. You can see that just by reading all the past posts. My two best friends have tried to kill themselves before, (one is annorexic and the other one is bulemic) and even though I knew they were going to be alright, I cried almost constantly for what seemed like forever afterwards. And they thought that no-one cared about them but I do. I wouldn't know what I would have done if they had died and I know that there is someone who thinks the exact same about you. Please don't give up, life will get better for you.

Luver,
Please PLEASE don't kill yourself! It really isn't the answer. You may not think that anyone cares for you but they do. You can see that just by reading all the past posts. My two best friends have tried to kill themselves before (one is annorexic and the other one is bulemic), and even when I knew they were going to be alright, I cried almost constantly for what seemed like forever afterwards. And they thought that no-one cared about them but I do. I wouldn't know what I would have done if they had died and I know that there is someone who thinks the exact same about you. Please don't give up, life will get better for you.
- Ashlee

thanx
u got me a bit of hope for myself. I never really though about the other people in my life. but it's hard some times you know. I just don't feel like i can do anything. i don't know who to get past thia but you guys are a really great start.
luv
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