At this present moment in time I hate myself, I feel fat and bloated. From Friday, I have been over-eating/bingeing. Tonight I have more or less picked/constantly ate. I know, I know…this is probably due to me hardly eating through the week but I am just feeling really really lonely and I dunno who to turn to!!!
How do u stop these impulsions to eat??? I know I will wake up tomorrow and click back into not eating mode until I feel empty again. I feel so damn fat. I just wanna cry.
I am tired…but don’t wanna go to sleep coz these kcals are just gonna stick to me if I don’t stay up a bit longer. I feel so alone. Asthough I am the only person who does what I do.

Sorry all ::L…Im in a depressive mode L

Love
Carolinexx

Hi Caroline.
I'm sorry about how you're feeling but you know, you can never stop those urges to eat, you're body needs the food. If you don't want to keep binging and purging, PLEASE try to eat at least 3 small meals a day, it's not good for your body, the amount you starve yourself. If you are feeling lonely and you want someone to talk to you can e-mail me if you want. I will ALWAYS reply. My e-mail address is lonely_fairy_@hotmail.com.
Don't worry, you're not alone, I do what you do too. Some nights I wont go to bed until about 2 or 3 am just because I am so restless. That's usually when I post on here.
Well good luck and please don't hate yourself! I don't hate you and I'm sure no one else on the board does either.

-Ashlee