Okay I guess I should just start this by saying my ED is back and I don't know if it's going to stop this time-this is the worst it has ever been-my restricting is ridicluous(how much I eat) when I think about it intellctual but I still can't bring myself to eat more-what scared me is I was eating liquids for a while(like tomato soup and peaches for a few days) and at work someone tried to get me to eat a potato wedge and when I did I started choking on it-like my body didn't know what I was putting into it-I didn't just choke once but 2 times-why is this happening???? Please help someone.
God Bless

do you know why your ed is back? there is obviously a reason you started again. What is it? And do you need to talk about it? Do you see someone? Also, don't say that it wont stop, cuz it will. You just gotta have faith and strength. And I'm sure you have both. I think that you need to speak to someone. Last thing, if you can't eat solid food I suggest you get a food processor and put everything in there and then eat it. Please post or email me at Rachdaar@optonline.net if you need support. And keep us posted please http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif
Lots of luv and luck,
Rachel

Dear Rachel,
I am in thearpy and have been in therapy for nuremous reasons since about the age of 12 or 13 (I am now 21). I kinda know why the ED has come back but am not totally sure-I will try to keep you posted though-I have another therapy session on Tuesday and I will tell my therpist what I have been doing-I have been keeping a log of what I have been eating also-this helps me not to eat as much(I know that's a bad thing) but than I can also show it to my therpist so she knows how much I am eating also.
Thank you so much for caring and God Bless.

Thanks Bee Bee,
I ate some grapes today but that is all so far-I went to therapy and once again got weighed(blind weight as always) and I give her my food journal(I have been writing down everything I have been eating). My therapist and my psyctrist are talking about referring me someweres else because they don't speacilze in eating disorders-I couldn't handle that-my T is the best one I ever had in my life-she actually cares-she even cries with me and comforts me; I never had this before-and my psych is also wonderful-he's a Christian for one and for two he leaves everything up to me-I would be lost without them. Help please.
God Bless.

I'm sure that if you don't want to leave the psych and T that you have now, they will let you stay, just as long as they think that you won't starve to death before you have the chance to get better. I have no idea about the gagging, you may want to call your doc and ask about that. Just remember, you have lots of people who care about you on this board alone! This is just a temporary thing that you WILL overcome!

Thank you so much cloudy daze-it means a lot to me.
God Bless.