Hello, I am new at this, and am just so confused at not knowing if I have an ed or not. First of all, this has been going on for almost a year, just two months ago I was weighing 90 lbs, now I weigh 94-95 and I am 5 feet tall, which is very short, and i just feel so fat for my height! my thighs are huge, i'm 19 and feel i have the thighs of a 40 year old. I have to admit I have terrible eating habits, some days i eat alot others nothing at all, and i usually just eat once a day, and sushi because it's something i like with low calories, i never drink anything that's not diet coke, and i feel like lately it has been interrupting my social life, i go out and never have a drink because of the calories they have. My boyfriend has expressed his distaste at my loosing weight, but since i study abroad he hasn't seen my since the end of july, thats why i'm anxious to go back home and him finding me fat. What do you people think? i can't really talk to this with anyone because i don't look anoreic and i think if i told people this they would think i'm making problems up or something. well thanks to y'all who answer me...

Hiya

First, it's good to know I'm not the only newcomer! Thanks!

Sounds to me like you to have an eating problem. You don't say if you take anything to get rid of food or make yourself sick. If you don't, then you are in a stronger position to get out of the ed hell before it gets worse.

I,too, am just 5ft and weigh 91 lbs. I, too, sometimes feel fat & disgusting BUT my friends tell me I'm thin. Logically I know I can't be fat - a UK size 6 is too big (not sure where u r from). Difference between us is age, I'm 33 and have had an ed for 9 years. PLEASE DON'T GET LIKE ME.

You say that some days you eat lots and some days you eat hardly anything. First golden rule to stop these highs and lows is to eat 3 meals a day with a snack in between. Scary I know but by regulating your eating there is less chance that you will overeat and go overboard. 3 meals a day is healthy. They don't have to be highly calorific or laden with fat. Just sensible healthy food. Until you get used to it, just pick foods that you are safe with - that aren't going to make you feel bad.

Believe me, eating 3 meals a day will make you feel better. When I'm in control and on a roll I do feel thin. It's only when I binge that I feel fat afterwards (mostly the guilt makes me feel this way) but my cutting back after binging it makes it worse. All that does is pre-empt the next binge.

Golden rules to getting better and leading a healthier life:
Always eat 3 meals a day with a snack in between.
If you overeat/binge never skip the next meal. After bingeing, who feels like eating a meal? Right! But by starving yourself you're just securing the next overeating session. Your body needs food/fuel to survive. So the lack of nutrition will trigger the next overeating session, which will make you feel bad/fat, so you starve yourself more and hey, it all happens again.

It may help to make a meal plan each day. Decide what you are going to eat for your 3 meals that day and stick to it. It will stop the highs and lows. You will actually feel thinner (than you would with an erratic eating pattern), healthier and in control. I promise you, it works.

As for drink, don't deprive yourself if you enjoy it but never drink alone. Go out, limit yourself to 2 or 3. Red wine is a good choice! or maybe something with a low-cal mixer if it makes you feel better. Why deprive yourself of something you enjoy?

Be kind to yourself. Look after your body - it's the only one you have and it needs to stay healthy to help see you through the rest of your life.

Take good care,

Hazel

pls answer people, i really need to know, i'm not sure if i do or if i don't or whatever

Any time that food becomes a total obsession and interfears with your life (like the going out) then I would consider it an eating disorder. Also, eating only one low calorie meal a day is not normal food behaviour. You also have really low self-esteem which will only make things worse unless you decide to get help. Have you though about going to see a couselor or therapist? It really does help.

Hmmm...Im five feet....112lbs....what does this say about me??????!!! U people are 91 ish and here's the elephant!!!!!!

Urgh! My life is getting better knowing that I am like the fattest on the board!!

gr8!!!

You guys all just need a self esteem boost and a little bit of counceling.Let me help...I'm 5'5" and weigh 148ish lbs. Im the lard *** if there is one here.
I suggest you and a friend make up a contract with one another even if they dont have any 'problems' ya'll should agree to eat a certain amount of healthy food a day and keep each other posted. Your best friends are the best councelors in the world...its a little too late for me to find out-though and i dont want the same thing to happen to you guys that did for me...
Love ya lots,Bowlen

hey sorry to keep on bothering... but one more question. in the last two days i have taken six laxatives, or however you spell it, but they don't work on me!! i don't know why, i have problems going to the bathroom and i take laxatives and they hardly ever work. one more question, do you think i should check with a doctor, cuz i took 4 yesterday and 2 today.

hey i have a question here, it had been a long time since i ate like normal food, and last night i went out to dinner and had half a grilled cheese chicken sandwhich on whole wheat bread and a handful of french fries, later on that same night i had a small carton of chocolate milk!! helloo how many calories does all that have?? i don't know why i have these sudden eating binges, but i feel physically ill after eating so much, and just feel like i ate enough for two days. can someone help ease my guilt here? i mean do you think you can gain weight by say a week of eating like this?? ohh and i go to the gym five times a week how long before i start noticing the results?? this was my first week actually but i have all the intention to keep on going, so when should i start noticing some weight loss?? i mean this week i actually feel bulkier and a bit heavier that before starting the gym. well thanks for all your answers people...
take cate

ok, what you ate last night is probably less than what a normal person would eat for dinner. I know it might be scary to eat more than usual, but it's still not even enuf. It's not called binging. Also, maybe you're not supposed to be seeing such results. And maybe you shouldn't be going to the gym so much. You gotta be careful with your excersizing, I don't want you to get sick. And, you're getting muscle by excersizing, which could be why you feel bulkier. What does your boyfriend say about you going to the gym so much? keep me posted!
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Rachel

Your post reminds me of my own from a couple weeks ago. Sometimes I still tell myself that I don't have an ED, but other times I really believe I do, and then there are times I'm okay with it... It's weird. Do you think you do have an ED, or are you still not sure?

Do you take the laxatives because you wish you hadn't eaten something and you want to get rid of it? And have you ever tried to throw up?

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hey guys, well thanks for answering, i do feel better hearing that i didnt overeat. and about my excercising why rad (rachel) do you think i'm overexcersing i only go like 5 times a week, and well idont know, someone told me that the first two weeks ou get thicker and later on your weight loss starts to show. well to answer the other reply, i didn't take any laxatives last night, i just ate!! and ate!! and i have tried vomiting but i have never been able to!! i don't know why! i only go through the gagging motions! well people pls keep on answering and givino me your opinions.
thanks, take care
xoxo