so i had a great weekend. went to a reptile show/sale. i love snakes. wondered around the event for 4 hours. it was nice to do something that did not involve doctors, counselors, medication. just go and be ME for once.

so why am i so down again? i feel like a burden again. you might find this funny but i painted my nails and felt pretty last week. this week i dont' even feel pretty enough to do that. i see a counselor tomorrow. i wanted so much to just cancell all my appointments i made with her. i dont' see how she can help if i don't even want to be there. but isn't that part of their job...to be encouraging to me and help me to keep going?

well, right now i don' t even care about life much less go talk about it. i guess i'm just tired too. thanks for reading these words from someone who feels worthless :(

hey mokie,

i'm with you! we feel good one day and like heck the next. just wanted to let you know that you're not alone--by far!!!!

i've also had times when i didn't feel like going to "talk therapy" at all; i didn't give a damn about it, but i forced myself to go. sometimes i felt better after i left, sometimes i felt the same...sometimes even worse...sometimes i just came home and went to sleep.

it's going to be ok. there'll be other good days. we both know that! :)

best, :)

and one more thing, mokie,

you're NOT worthless by any means!!!!! you are awsome and very strong for having to put up with so much. i think people on this post know that!!!

dont you forget it!!!!!!!!

mokie - you're not worthless!
I'm glad you had a great weekend and got out and did something you like to do.
maybe you should go to a nail salon and get a manicure and a pedicure......it's better when they do it....you can relax and be pampered!
Besides, at least when I do it, I'm getting paint all over the cuticles, etc.....it's much easier to just let them to it!
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