I was just wondering if feeling really empty and hopeless for no apparent reason can be contributed to something.Maybe a past loss or issue.I get this feeling way too often and I dont know what to do about it.Its like,I try to sit down and ask myself where this is coming from but I cant seem to figure it out.Its starting to get really hard to deal with.I work 50 hours a week and its getting hard to be at work and just feel like nothing matters at all.I just feel like my life is always an uphill battle and it will never just kind of be in over drive and it'll be smooth sailing.I know my life is not nearly as bad as some other ppl,and its really not but these feelings I get are almost unbearable.I dont drink or do drugs to deal with it so its always kind of there.Not saying I should turn to those things but its temptimg sometimes.Im a 21 year old single girl.I live by myself,I comp[letely support myself.I love my job,have great friends and a promising future.So I cannot for the life of me figure this out.I dont want to go on medication for this but I dont know what else to do.I was depressed a few years back and had severe panic/anxiety problems for quite a while after my father died when I was 15.But then it went away but now its back.Sometimes Ill just start crying because it hurts so bad,crying for no apparent reason.Like I just want to go home and cry and think about things.Its really weird and its getting harder to deal with.

Can anyone help me with this?

hi tulips,

there is no such thing as 'no apparent reason'--it's obvious from your letter. you work way too many hours, you seem tired (you probably are tired and burnt), and you may need a break, even if you do love your job. it seems to me you've drowned yourself in work for some reason or another. what do you think?

you're young, you're self-sufficient, you have good friends--but something's missing there. you're talking about the past....you say you're crying when you think about it, and yet in the same breath you say you don't know why you're crying. maybe things are harder than they seem for you right now-- and some of us tend to think about the past when the present doesn't go very well. did you deal with/overcome your dad's passing? did you make peace within your soul/heart/mind with that? you were very young when that happened.... maybe you need to revisit that whole issue? what about your mom, or other family members? have you spoken to them about your feelings? friends are good to talk to, but family (if they are there and able to understand) is better, since they know you better.

did something happen recently in your life (in any aspect of your life) to possibly influence your state of mind? you know what tulips?! i really believe that talking it out with someone will do you good. if your job offers you insurance, go try talking with a professional--someone who is capable of offering you more in terms of ideas and answers, and someone who may have more experience in dealing with such issues....

it may help, it may not, but it's worth a shot. and don't be afraid. you'll only grow stronger by reaching out...
best of luck to you

Yeah, I guess I agree with Dakota, that there is always a reason for it.... but for some people I think the reason is simply due to unfortunate biochemical makeup. Some of us just have a depressing mix of neurotransmitter action going on... argh.. i'm afraid to say anything more right now because I'm worried that whatever I say, someone is going to quote and then attack... and you know what? I am really just too tired for that right now.

Sorry... but yeah.... I know what it's like to be sad... Hang in there... better days are ahead. *hugs*

hey wonderingsoul,

i definitely agree with you as well. i'm one of those ppl with the weird biochemichal mix-up...i just think that sometimes it's best to start slowly, without going straight to pills first, you know?! i did it all, and nothing helped but meds, and even now....i'm sure you know how it is!

also, i wouldn't be afraid to say what i thought; there may be many ppl who may disagree, but there may be many more who may just as well agree!

have a good day wondering! i hope i will too! :wave:

Dakota,
Thanks... I'm not *really* afraid of people disagreeing with me.. I've just been very sensitive lately, and on some level it hurts/ feels like a criticism even if someone says in the kindest way, "I disagree with you." So... I just didn't want to go through that....

Dakota,
Thanks... I'm not *really* afraid of people disagreeing with me.. I've just been very sensitive lately, and on some level it hurts/ feels like a criticism even if someone says in the kindest way, "I disagree with you." So... I just didn't want to go through that....
I know exactly how you feel, Wandering. Mostly I couldn't care less what other people think of me or say about me, but at times when I'm down I tend to be overly sensitive and it's really easy to "hurt my feelings". In the right frame of mind it's very difficult to "hurt my feelings" because I rarely take offence.

I hope today finds you feeling a little better :angel: .

Hiya,

I'm taking meds for depression and feel it has helped my major symptoms, if there's something out there that can fix a problem then I'm all for trying it as depression is horrible. I continously question why I'm depressed and feel I think about it too much. I'd like to add that depression can simply be a chemical imbalance of the brain and there dosn't always have to be a reason for it. Gon and see your doc, talk to him, dont bottle it up and wait for it to go away. My only other thought is ensure your active and you have a weekly sport/workout fix as a healthy body is a healthy mind :)

Take care :angel:

[QUOTE=twotulips]I was just wondering if feeling really empty and hopeless for no apparent reason can be contributed to something.Maybe a past loss or issue.I get this feeling way too often and I dont know what to do about it.Its like,I try to sit down and ask myself where this is coming from but I cant seem to figure it out.Its starting to get really hard to deal with. So I cannot for the life of me figure this out.I was depressed a few years back and had severe panic/anxiety problems for quite a while after my father died when I was 15.But then it went away but now its back.
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Tulips sorry for your loss of your dad and that you are feeling bad. You ask if your feelings could be attributed to a loss and then you tell us that you lost your dad 6 years ago. You suffered from "severe" issues at the time.
Tulips, you answered your own question. I don't know what your circumstances were or how your dad died, but many people grieve the loss of a loved one without depression/anxiety/panic (I am not saying anything bad about you. Everyone is different and has different circumstances which makes our experiences different. I am just saying that if you had "severe" problems when your dad died that it is very likely that not everything has been resolved with it). I think that you just need to work through some more issues now. A few years ago something stabilized your depression/anxiety/panic but maybe you should go to a therapist now and see what else that you need to work on. Good luck to you.

Hiya,

I'm taking meds for depression and feel it has helped my major symptoms,
Most of us here are on meds also. We just have periods of time when our illness breaks through the meds; some of us haven't found the right meds yet and our symptoms are not under control. Medications are not a 100% "cure" for everyone. I'm on two antidepressants and I still have symptoms.