eminemworshipper
03-05-2002, 06:44 AM
dunno what it is with me recently..I have been up and down with my moods...it's unreal!
I have been doing great with this Vegan melarkey...haven't told my Dad, step mam n step sisters yet coz they probably just take the p*ss and have something to say...not my Dad...I mean the others.
Anyway...last night...out of now where came these tears. I was sooo unbelievably down, I felt I had hit my 'reality' wall...I have been pretending that all of this eating is such a breeze. I am really lying to myself more than anything. I feel and look fat now, it's really ridiculous. So, I feel like I am slowly drifting back into my starving cycle. WHat is a girl to do to feel happier at this point in time?! WHo knows......?
I have been doing great with this Vegan melarkey...haven't told my Dad, step mam n step sisters yet coz they probably just take the p*ss and have something to say...not my Dad...I mean the others.
Anyway...last night...out of now where came these tears. I was sooo unbelievably down, I felt I had hit my 'reality' wall...I have been pretending that all of this eating is such a breeze. I am really lying to myself more than anything. I feel and look fat now, it's really ridiculous. So, I feel like I am slowly drifting back into my starving cycle. WHat is a girl to do to feel happier at this point in time?! WHo knows......?

