littleobsession26
03-12-2002, 09:32 PM
Alrite this is my first time posting anything on this board or this website altogether.
Well i know that im officially an anorexic with bulimic tendencies. I eat next to nothing all day, and when i binge, i throw it all up as soon as i can. this is all strange to me, becuz this just started off as a simple diet. i used to be 150 lbs, i was on that slimfast diet and i had gotten down to 120 lbs. i was doing great until then, the pounds stopped coming off and i panicked. everyone was telling me how great i looked since i lost weight and i liked it. the thought of staying at that weight scared me. i slowly began to eat less and less until my body just got used to eating almost nothing. at first i didnt think i had an ED but i know i do. it changed the way i think about myself too, and i talk to myself. after i binge, i tell myself its okay but i hear someone else telling me that i did bad and that imma get fatter. its kinda scary but its like my motivation. im finally down to 100lbs, and i wanna lose more.
In a way, i sometimes wanna go see a counselor or something, just to talk to someone about it, but im too scared. this ED has taken over my life.
Well i know that im officially an anorexic with bulimic tendencies. I eat next to nothing all day, and when i binge, i throw it all up as soon as i can. this is all strange to me, becuz this just started off as a simple diet. i used to be 150 lbs, i was on that slimfast diet and i had gotten down to 120 lbs. i was doing great until then, the pounds stopped coming off and i panicked. everyone was telling me how great i looked since i lost weight and i liked it. the thought of staying at that weight scared me. i slowly began to eat less and less until my body just got used to eating almost nothing. at first i didnt think i had an ED but i know i do. it changed the way i think about myself too, and i talk to myself. after i binge, i tell myself its okay but i hear someone else telling me that i did bad and that imma get fatter. its kinda scary but its like my motivation. im finally down to 100lbs, and i wanna lose more.
In a way, i sometimes wanna go see a counselor or something, just to talk to someone about it, but im too scared. this ED has taken over my life.