Unfortunately I'm not doing any better. I've been drinking quite a bit lately which leads me to say who cares and eat then guilt then throwing up. I feel like I'm just not trying hard enough I need to stop drinking and bingeing and just try and get back to an ordinary routine. The problem is it's been so long since I was about to eat without total guilt or throwing up (3-4yrs) that I don't think I can do it. My husband getting frustrated too I think he's started to notice my drinking and he's not happy about it, I want to stop before theres a confrontation because it's bad enough with the eating.

Hi

I can certainly relate to your situation. I had bulemia for 18 years which followed anorexia. I threw up every single day and usually at least 5-10 times a day. My husband too was frustated. I was able to get help and recovered from the bulemia. I also turned to alcohol for comfort and have now been alcohol free for 17 months. I spent so many years trying to bury the demons and cover them up. It has been very hard yet rewarding having to face these problems addiction free. You can do it...I promise. If I can, you can. You have to hit a rock bottom state and once you do, make the decision you are going to get well and you will. It will be hard, but worth all the pain and energy. Please pray...I know I couldn't have done it alone. Good luck and I will pray for you.