Hi there,

I'm just wondering if this site is mostly for anorexics and bulimics? I compulsively overeat. I suffer from depression and eating to exhaustion and then sleeping is how I cope. THe depression is somewhat better but the eating is out of control. I just get bigger and bigger. I'm about 245lbs. MY highest is 250. WHen I was sixteen, I was about 150 and hated myself. I would have killed myself - but I ate myself into oblivion and managed to live through my teens with a desperate hope that someday things would get better.
If I'd known that at 26 I'd be 245lbs, STILL single and alone, and still struggling every single day to make it through, hanging on by my fingernails- I would have killed myself.
I guess there must be a spot of hope in me somewhere cause I'm still hanging on. I'm just so tired of it though. I feel so alone. noone understands. I guess I came here because I'm hoping to meet other people who understand ...so if anyone has a similar story.. I'd really like to meet you.
Thanks for listening/reading:0)
Jilly

Welcome to the board. Compulsive Overeating is an eating disorder too, so of course you are welcome here. There are other COE people on this board, so I hope you find some of them to talk to. There IS hope for you, as there is hope for us all. Take care.

Fiona

I can relate to you...I do tend to over eat and find I can't stop. My weight usually rises 7lbs or over. U can only stop the over-eating when you are ready and feel u have the will power to stop.
I was ill the other day and couldn't face food at all...I am still not well...I am kinda thankful coz I'm back on track now.

We r all here to helpXX

Hi, there.

I'm 21 and also from Canada. Over the past six years, I've struggled with everything from anorexia to compulsive overeating. I've also been bulimic for a long time. My greatest problem, though, is constantly overeating, having no control over food and never being able to stop. Sometimes I panic and feel the need to purge or exercise, while at other times I'm so numb that I don't care and I just want to sleep. You're definitely not alone. Have you seen anyone for help? I've been reading a lot of books on the subject and sometimes it's inspiring to know that people have overcome this problem. I don't even care about my weight anymore; I'm just sick of being a slave to food.

I was totally COE for many many years, like age 8 to 16. then I went on a diet, went form 250 to 180, but then I aquired another problem, ana http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif Damn obsessive compulsive personality!

Jilly I related to what you are saying and I am in the same shape. I don't know if I overeat, but in my mind if feels like I am. I get up in the morning and wonder what sounds good to eat and I sometimes think ahead to the next day. I love the thought of going out to eat to a buffet. If we go out to eat I usually order alot of food because I know that I will eat it all. I don't ever feel full. All of my friends are skinnier then I am, but it hasn't really bugged me until recently. My excuse for not working out is that I don't have anybody to go with! So I hope that you are able to find a way to cope with your problem and come back and tell me how you did it. I would love to not eat so much anymore!

xfiles...what is ana damn compulsive ?? never heard that before??thx

Sparkle, Have you ever thought of surgery? When you are that much over weight and cannot seem to stop. Stomach bypass may be the answer for you. PLUS Therapy. Not only are you suffering emotionally but physically. With the surgery, if you even try to eat too much you will get sick. Eventually your mind will adjust to your new eating habits and you will not want food all the time. Surgery is serious but talk to a doctor. I had it 6 years ago and would do it again today if I needed it. Check out several doctors. I do not know about canada but in the states most insurance covers it for heath reaasons. The first week after my surgery I lost 15 lbs of fluid. I was feeling so much better about myself that I breezed thru the surgery and post op. I hope for the best for you! Take Care,

Y country girl did u have it?? its kinda dangerous..no a gal that had it done and she still in the hospital for 3 weeks....

Jilly...and to anyone else who it may help!!

Over the past 10 years I had constantly been overweight, and I now put this down to compulsive eating. I didn't really notice it and found that it wasn't bothering me and I thought I still felt fit with it...how wrong I was. Reality was I just got used to it and didn't notice that I was getting less active. Every night would involve a takeaway meal (living on my own) and I seem to always convince myself that I needed to rest as soon as I came in from work, thinking that I deserved it for the hard days work that I put in, so I'd sit in front of the TV all night snacking......big mistake it turned out to be!!!

5 months ago I decided to sort myself out as my weight was up to 373lbs and I started to suffer bad back pain.

The first thing I did was to decide that I wasn't going on a diet; I was going to change my whole lifestyle instead. If someone asks if I'm dieting, I just say "no, changing my lifestyle".

The second thing I did was bought nothing but fruit to put in the flat and stopped buying biscuits, sugar etc. Everytime I felt hungry, I would take a piece of fruit.

Third thing I did was to start walking. Every night I would walk 2 miles on a course that would take me up and down moderate graded hills; long straights etc. and changed the route every now and then.

Finally the fourth was to keep active. Sitting at home will cause you to start eating rubbish, occupy your time with anything. Take the walk mentioned if bored etc.

In the past 5 months my weight has dropped off to 226lbs and I feel better then I can ever remember. The best part of it was that I have started running those 2 miles I used to walk....the same route that would almost make me collapse in sweat when I first started.

My message to you is change the way you think and it will all click into place as you go along, constantly think what you are doing and why. I won't lie to you, the exercise did hurt a bit the first few weeks and you will feel tired for a short while, but it will be worth it. Also, try to think that you are doing it for yourself and no one else.

Sorry this is so long winded, but I hope it will help someone else, I've basically re-discovered myself.

There is one down side; it is so damn expensive to keep up with clothes that fit during the loss :-)

Hi BuyLady, Sorry it took me soo long to respond. Yes I had the surgery in 1995. It is tough surgery but I went in with a positive attitude and excited that I would not have to be big any more. I felt so bad before the surgery that anything had to be a step up. I never weighed very much growing up so when I took steroids and gain so much in my late 30, it nearly killed me. I would do the surgery again tonight. I had a wonderful surgeon and he took out part of my stomach, not stapled it. I think that is better.

really cg?

thats kinda gross.

Dear jPain

Well done to you, it is always inspirationally to hear of success and what you have done is sensible.

Keep up the good work!

I absolutely understand. I am 32 years old on Monday, and I am 270 pounds. I have been overeating for 10 years. I have generalized anxiety disorder, and I am depressed quite a lot. My husband is taking me on a Carnival Cruise on November 10th, and I'm terrified. I have pulled out all the stops in a desperate attempt to lose weight in the next 5 months. I have gone on an all-liquid "fast", consisting of vegetable and fruit juices, and herb tea.

I am on my second day, after having been dreading this for weeks. I am doing okay, but everyone, of course, is telling me that this is not the way to go.

I know that! But I've tried every damn thing else, so at this point it's give up and hate myself and my life for the rest of it that I have to live, or do something drastic and hope I can recover from my success or my failure at it.

If you ever want to talk I'm here.