Hi, it's me again. Having one of those days. I have been strictly dieting for a LONG time now. I know I shouldn't but can't seem to stop. I haven't lost weight for a week now. Even though I am smaller then I've been in years I am feeling so fat and ugly today. I don't know what to do. I wish I felt good about myself. I wish I didn't care so dang much about my weight.

Aw, I know how you feel...today, for me, so far hasn't been bad. My pants are actually falling off of me, and when I weighed myself last night I had dropped from 113 to 108. I was in such excitement last night. And, today, I have eaten some, but, thank goodness, my mom isn't around or she'd be on my back about not eating 'enough.' I'm sorry that today was a bad day for you, I definetly know what those days are like. It's almost everyday for me. Take care, and I hope things get better!
--Katie

Hey Annie

Do you know what they say about us Anorexic's???

"It's all in the mind" http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/bang.gif

And that my dear is so true. Your skinner than a rail, but yet you feel huge. You have to take that willpower you use to diet and exert it in the direction of that demon in your mind telling you that you are fat.

It's a control thing. Once you can gain control of your mind again & not let that demon convince you you are big, then you will overcome this disease.

Of course, what you are describing is typical of every one of us who suffer's one this board. Feeling huge, not liking ourselves (low self esteem), etc.

Correct that low self esteem. You should be proud of yourself that you have the will and power to have lost the weight you have. Now exert that will and power in the direction of getting well. Think of that accomplishment. It's huge!!! Go for it gal, you got the power Cat http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Hehe, listen to Cat...she's a smart lady. It's all in your mind. I"m sorry you're having such a rough day...keep telling yourself, over and over (outloud if you must...SCREAM IT AT THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS) "I AM BEAUTIFUL, I AM NOT FAT, MY MENTAL IMAGE IS LYING TO ME...I AM BEAUTIFUL...I AM BEAUTIFUL...I AM BEAUTIFUL...I DESERVE FOOD, I NEED FOOD, I AM BEAUTIFUL" Hope your day gets better, hon. Just remember that youa re beautiful, and that you not only DESERVE food, you NEED it to live!!!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

NEVER GIVE UP (you can beat this, you deserve a life without the struggles of an ED)
~sarah~