I know I just posted something..but, that was the first time I have ever told anyone about my "problem"..and it just felt so good..I am going to tell more.

Everytime I look in the mirror I say "Okay..when I loose 10 more lbs I'll stop this crazy routine and be like a normal person..." But..that's never how it ends up. I'm not even sure what a "normal" person is anymore. I have tried purging but, it is very difficult for me. When I try to touch the back of my throat, I only gag..I can hardly ever actually throw up. When I gave that option up, I felt like I couldn't succed at anything. And that's when I dramatically started to loose weight. I keep loosing a weight and I know soon, if I don't stop..I'm going to get sick..really sick. But..I don't think I can stop myself from doing this. Whenever I see someone skinner then me..I go out and I do the most ridicously work-out routine..where I almost always nearly pass-out at the end.

This feels great to talk about it. Anyone who has any comments or advice...please, I'd greatly appreciate it. Always, Kat

Kat~
Hello and welcome to the boards! This board is a great place to find support and advice and it has definitly been helping me with some of my problems so I hope it will help you too! Now, from your posts it sounds like you have a very serious problem! For a person who is as active as you are you should really be eating more and certainly not losing any more weight. You are right about getting sick if you continue to lose weight. Your health could really be at risk! I don't know if you feel ready to tell anyone about this but maybe you could talk to friends or your family about this? If not, I really encourage you to keep posting here cause everyone is really nice and can give you lots of good advice! I guess I've rambled long enough!I hope this helps, be sure to keep us posted!
~Jen~

Hi Kat!!

I'm glad that it felt good to talk about your "problem" that's a huge step. You're acknowledging that your eating habits and concerns about weight are NOT normal!! go you! Be proud of yourself.

I know about the feelings of pride that are related to an ED...but you should be even more proud of yourself that you DON'T purge. That takes strength.


And the "I'll just lose 10 more pounds" won't go away until you make it. There will always be "10 more pounds" to lose...until you end up in the hospital. Remember that you are a beautiful person, and you're more than a body. You're a spirit and soul, and those are beautiful too!

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

I KNOW HOW U FEEL. I AM GLAD YOU ADMIT THAT U HAVE A PROBLEM. NOW U NEED TO TRY AND HELP YOURSELF AND WORK OUT WHAT U ARE GOING TO DO TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF IN A POSITIVE WAY. HAVE U THOUGHT ABOUT TREATMENT PROGRAMS. SARAHS RIGHT 10LBS WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH. YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN JUST A NUMBER. PLEASE GET HELP AND START TALKING ABOUT YOUR PROBLEM TO PEOPLE. YOU DERSERVE TO BE WELL.

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