Last night went well with the chicken dinner if any of you know about it from reading my post yesterday. I ate it all, felt guilty but kept it down.
The funny pains i had yesterday are not here today which is a good thing, that was very worrying, last night i washed my hair and i must say a very large amount of hair came out, but a fair amount comes out each time i wash it anyway i think it is because i bleach my hair, maybe i am just paranoid.

So apart from all that except the hair part everything was goin fine, i was quite happy today cause i am goin on holiday in 6 days so that is something to look forward to, except that i will be with my mum n dad and i will have to eat every single meal for two weeks none stop.

so anyway everything was fine till this morning, now that has been all turned upside down, I feel hurt and angre i am so upset,
I regularly go to see some horses at the back of my college where i work, i take them apples and food because there owner is a complete *******, he is mean to them, he doesnt feed them, he hits them, he leaves there hoves rotting, plus he only buys horses to put in his rundown f-----g riding school or he buys them to sell on to slaughter houses. I have called the RSPCA a number of times to report this cruelty but nothing gets done because so many people report this aswell as me.

so today i go to the field, usually the three horses are standing near the fence wating for me, today there was only one, i seen the other two lying down, one with his head up looking at me, the other one flat out of the floor nearlly hiden in the grass, i thought thats odd, i called them to come over but the one with his head up wouldnt come in the end he did but was reluctant to leave the other horses side.

I thought **** what is something has happened, i was so worried, i was crying walking over and i didnt even know what had happned yet, i get up to the little shetland pony and find he isnt breathing, so then i am sat with a dead pony in a field crying my heart out and feeling more depressed than ever, and that happened all this morning, i feel like killing myself at this moment i really do, i am trying to hold back the tears as i am writing this, as i am in work. i dont know where to turn everything is goin so wrong in my life and there is no point carrying on at all i feel like s--t.
what have i ever done to deserve this, at the minute i feel like killing the f-----g owner over and over again, he wont be able to hurt anymore horses then would he.

sorry to go on but this has really hit me really hard, i mean i visit those horses everyday and just because of the owners neglect this has to happen this just isnt right, life isnt fair at all.

Hi,
I'm so sorry this happened to you. It must have been horrible! Those poor horses and that pony makes me want to cry right now. I really can't cope at all when I see animal voilence or cruelty. Some people should not be allowed near animals full stop. You must be very sad and angry. Maybe you could have a ceremony for the pony or do something in it's honour.
I saw a little dog get run over the other day and it upset me terribly for days. It was so innocent and the driver didn't look or care or stop.
Hope your feeling better and I'm glad the pains in your chest have settled.
Mel

Oh chicklet!! I'm so sorry to hear about the horses!! That must have been a horrible horrible thing! I can't even imagine walking up on something like that, I think it would crush my heart and spirit just like you!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif


(((((((( http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/angel.gif CHICKLET http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/angel.gif )))))))))))

i'm sending you a huuuuuuuuuuuge hug cuz it sounds like you need it!!! And mel is right, maybe you could do something in honor of the pony, maybe that would help with your grief Hope you're feeling better sweetie!!

~sarah~

Aw, chicklet! I'm so sorry! It sounds like that was very hard for you! Stay strong! I hope things get better for you!

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Oh Chicklet, I am so, so sorry! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif

That poor little Shetland... they’re so small and cute... http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif I can’t believe that someone would mistreat an animal in such a way.

I don’t blame you for being angry about this. I have a horse of my own, and I KNOW that if anyone would ever do something to hurt Thomas I would... well, I won’t get into that. It just makes me so sick. I can’t even imagine what you must be feeling right now. It sounds like you knew that little pony quite well.

I can’t believe that the SPCA isn’t doing anything to help these horses! That’s their job! I know if something like that were to happen around here they would be there in an instant! I’m glad you find the strength to still visit those poor horses and ponies, I’m certain that they appreciate and enjoy your company. Just goes to show how much stamina you have and what a kind, caring person you are.

I couldn’t tolerate seeing a horse – or any animal – mistreated in such a way. Don’t give up on those innocent little animals, they’re so sweet and just do not deserve to be treated with such cruelty.

Take care of yourself, Chicklet. Maybe there are some more people at your University that would be willing to help you take a little extra care of those horses until something is done about them. Obviously, it would be cruel to force them to live the rest of their lives in such misery. Something has to be done. I’m certain that someone and your Uni would be willing to help you, after all, it’s a big job for one person and you shouldn’t have to do it all on your own.

Good luck!
Ashlee