Hi there, well i have entered a topic or two some months back, but haven't really been on the board for quite some time. I have been suffering from anorexia for a little over a year now, and just recently got some professional help. Now I know that's good, but the truth is i'm more scared about gaining weight than i have ever been about being anorexic. And i have a team of doctors to wrok with, and although they are all very nice people, I can't help it, I'm not ready to recover, hace any of you ever been in this spot?? Well I hope to hear from you guys.
Thanks

I KNOW EXACTLY HOW U FEEL. I WAS IN TREATMENT 1 1/2YRS AGO BUT I COULDNT HANDLE IT AND QUIT AND IVE BEEN STRUGGLING EVER SINCE. I KNOW EVEN IF U ARENT READY FOR RECOVERY U STILL NEED TO KEEP TRYING. I DONT THINK U R EVER READY FOR RECOVERY. BUT IF U DONT DO SOMETHING THINGS CAN GET WORSE AND U CAN DIE. YOU CAN DIE ANYWAY AND I CAN TOO BUT YOU NEED TO BE FOLLOWED BY A TREATMENT TEAM. JUST NEVER GIVE UP HUN. PLEASE YOU ARE SPECIAL AND I NOW YOU ARE STRONG AND CAN DO THIS. PLEASE EMAIL ME ANYTIME SWEETIE YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

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Hi Legally Brunette! and welcome back!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wave.gif

CONGRATS ON GETTING PROFESSIONAL HELP!!!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dance.gif I know you are scared and it's a difficult thing to do, but getting help is an amazing first step to recovery!

I know how you feel about the fear of getting fat. It's part of your ED. Your mind tricks you into believing certain things about yourself and your weight. It makes your priorities completly messed up...and it is SOOOOO scary to allow someone the "power" to help you reprogram your thought-processes...but I beleive in you!

And like people always remind me...how many recovered anorexic/bulimic people do you know that are fat???? NONE! Try to get better, I know you have the power in you! I KNOW YOU DO!

good luck
let us know how you're doing!!!

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/bouncing.gif BTW, I LOOOOOOOVE your name..."Legally brunette" THAT'S SO CUTE!!

Hey guys thanks for your replies, and thanks for always trying to help, i started my new diet today, and i'm in there i'm trying, but still 1100 calories seem like so much, thank God everyone that's working with me are all very understanding.

Hi Legally Brunette. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wave.gif

It’s good to hear that you’re finally getting some professional help for this after all that time of struggling by yourself.

I know you’re afraid of gaining weight, but that’s not the sole purpose of counselling anyway. I’ve explained this before on this board, but can’t remember on which topic or I’d just post the link! Anyway, counselling isn’t so much about talking about your weight as it is talking about... well... ANYTHING! I’ve been in counselling for a little while now, and I rarely talk about my weight there, and although I am weighed weekly at the moment, I’m never put under the pressures of being told to gain a certain amount of weight. This makes the whole counselling idea a lot more tolerable! You’re right though; the doctor’s ARE very understanding! I’m glad you get on well with your counsellor, as that’s a necessity to benefit from counselling.

Sure, 1100 calories seems like a lot to you now, but the truth is it’s not nearly enough to even gain weight! I’m on a special diet too, and trying hard to follow it (although I must admit I slip from time to time!) and it doesn’t make me gain weight at all either.

Good luck! F Don’t forget to post back and let us all know how you are!

Ashlee

Hey y'all, thanks so much for the replies. Well I was just writing to tell how everything is going. I've pretty much stuck to my diet, and you where right ashley i haven't gained any weight, though it has only been for 4 days so i know it's not such a big thing. Thanks to all those who replied and if you have any problems i hope to be able to help you out also.
Thanks
take care

Hey there, Legally Brunette! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wave.gif

I’m glad you’re following the special diet that’s been given to you. Trust me, if you haven’t noticed any change in your weight as yet – even though it’s only been four days – you can count yourself ‘safe’. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif For now, keeping your weight stable is the most important thing. When you’re good and ready you can increase the amount of food you eat little by little, until you reach a weight that is healthy, and that you are comfortable at. Then there won’t be any ‘out of control’ feelings either, because it will still be YOUR decision! Please, just work on keeping your weight steady, and not letting it fall any further. That’s the last thing you need!

Take care,
Ash

Congrats!! That's going to help a lot but it's like you said, if you're not ready to recover it won't do much good. One way to turn you off from any form of ED is to look up what it does to you and how it's not just hurting you but everyone else who actually cares(I learned that the hard way). Everyone here will always be here if you need us. Good luck.

Summer