I know this sounds really crazy, but here it goes.....during the school year i was anorexic, bulimic, and a compulsive runner....when summer came i took the opposite extreme and gained soooooo much weight, like 15 pounds. I HATE it, but i know that when school starts and can just get back to the normal routine and it will all drop off in the first month and a half. I know its bad, but i am scared not to do it.

HI homecomingqueen!! and welcome!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wave.gif

I have to admidt that I know how you're feeling. That's how I was. During school I found that I was in class or at work or meetings so often that it was easier to find excuses not to eat, or to run excessivly, and during breaks I would find it harder to keep up those "habits." This convinced me that I did not have an ED, and that I was "fine"... However, this summer proved me wrong. I was not taking classes, and I became a raging bulimic. So much more severe than ever before. I would b/p 7, 8, 9Xs a day for weeks at a time, until my body literally wouldn't let me purge anymore. Then I would get depressed. I can't warn you enough against feeling like going back to your ED is a good idea. Even if you want to get the weight that you've gained off. Probably, if you're struggling with anorexia, your body needed to gain the weight anyway. Please becareful, and have you ever considered getting help? Let us know how you're doing. This board is a wonderful place to come and talk to people who know how you're feeling!

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

Thanx sarah....i will definitely keep you updated...this really is a great place. I used to go to those pro ana sites, but they just helped me dig myself deeper. This way i can get exactly what i need to hear. God Bless
<3 Jennifer