Right now i am sitting in my room thinking about the noises my stomache is making cause i am so hungry. But i am scared to eat. I already ate too much today. I have over eaten all summer and today was the day it was supposed to stop. And I told my mom i already ate, uhh i hate it hate it hate it. Now what!?! It like, I want to eat and need to probably, but then i will binge. So i am scared to even start eating. THIS SUCKS

AWWWWW! sweetie!! I'm so so sorry that you are afraid of food. But I know EXACTLY EXACTLY how you feel. It's like you were taking the words out of my mouth. I do that so often, where I sit in my room or lay in my bed, praying that I fall asleep or find something to entertain me so I forget the pains and noises from my stomach.

You know that you ARE allowed to eat. That's part of your freedoms...you get to eat. I know how scary it is, how hard it is. We're here for you!! Your body needs food, sweetheart, trust me...no food = more pain. Unfortunatly that's the way it works, and our minds are programmed to think differently. You're right, I HATE THIS TOO!! But you can do it! You're stronger than food, your stronger than your ED! I have faith in you!!

let us know how today goes...
NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

oh man! I can relate to both of you! It hurts so much! I'll be sitting in front of the computer and just trying to get my mind off of food and stuff and into something else! It's hard! I agree! But, it is alright to eat! And I know how you feel, I feel like I over ate today! And, just about everyday I eat 2 or 3 meals. My mom got mad at me the other day because I felt sick after I ate and thought that maybe I ate too much! She was like "you did NOT eat too much! You could have eaten more, and it'd be better!" But, sometimes I feel worse when i DO eat, the pains are worse, b/c they wrack my brain and make me thing about how I shouldn't have eaten, rather than the pains i get from not eating.

Okay, I doubt I made any sense but that's alright! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

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--katie--

No, Katie, you completely make sense!!! I would rather fight the physical pains (from either starving or purging) than fight the mental pains I get after I eat...BLAH! But I know that eating is important...we all need food to SURVIVE! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

Oh, it's good to know I made sense!

Now, as to why my post showed up twice does not make sense, to me! Hm....

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--katie--

[I deleted the double post for you, SingingSmiles. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif ~ Roxy]

[This message has been edited by *Roxy* (edited 08-17-2002).]