Sorry guys, I've been gone for a few days and I really need to vent. I just got back from a four day camping trip I took with my 3 best friends. It was really, really fun but at the same time it was horrible. I couldn't purge for 4 days, what was I supposed to do puke behind a tree? All I could think about was how fat I was getting while my friends ate and ate and still felt normal.

I just wish that I could make all this ed stuff go away. I always kinda thought that I could give up purging if I really wanted to but when I got home I didn't even go an hour before I purged. I feel so disgusting and I just want to be normal again but I know I can't stop until I'm skinny enough.

Sorry again for the vent but it feels better to get it off my chest.
~Jen~

oh jen! i'm so sorry that things were so hard for you! but, maybe if you try to think of it as a good thing those days when you didn't get to purge! You were helping your body at least a little bit. Maybe that'll help you! I don't know! But hang in there!

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--katie--

Hey Jen! Welcome back!

I'm sorry your vaca wasn't all you wanted it to be. I hate watching other people eat and know they don't have the same "issues" I do!

But Katie's right...4 days without purging is a good step! Because you didn't let yourself purge, cuz you COULD have hypothetically purged behind a tree...but you didn't! You need to commend yourself for that! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

hope things get a little better now that you're back home!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

Hey girls! Thanks for replying to my post. I'm feeling a lot better now. I had a really bad day yesterday but today was lots better! I didn't purge at all today and I didn't eat any 'bad' food so I feel much better about myself. I'm also in a good mood because my best friend has been gone for 2 months and I finally got to see her today! This week should be really fun for me because I turn 17 on monday and I get to start school on thursday and I'm so excited to see everyone again! I have to run but I hope you guys are all doing well!
~Jen~

Hey jen!

happy birthday!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/birthday.gif

I'm so glad you're feeling a little better today!! That's such wonderful news!!! yay you!!! Reminds me that even though today is hard for me there is always tomorrow...kinda makes me want to dance http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dance.gif

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

oOo, yay! Happy Birthday!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif hee hee hee

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--katie--

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

And, I am very proud of you for not purging today!! Yo go ! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

Luv,
Didi

http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/birthday.gif for Monday!!!