My beta is tomorrow morning. I'm excited and praying ferverently that I am pregnant, but at the same time terrified of the next week or so if I am. So much so I may not check for the results until AF is a couple of days late, as I've never made it that far. What would you do?

believe

ibelieve,
i completely understand. being a practical person, i would just go ahead with the beta tomorrow morning since you're going to have to find out -- whether it's tomorrow or in the next couple of days. if it's not what you had hoped, you can start regrouping -- but if it's a BFP you can bask in the success and excitement!
whatever you decide, i'm sure it'll be what's right for you.
in the meantime, i will be sending you good thoughts for the positive result that you deserve! good luck and lots of baby dust to you!

Hi Ibelieve :wave:

I have to second the advice from Cubed. I would rather know sooner than later, and for the same reasons. Whatever you decide, know that we are here to support you. Best of luck for a positive result!! Please let us know when you know..

Holly~

Baby dust comin your way :D

ibelieve, I myself think that if there was the most remote chance that I was pregnant I would want to know without any delays, as I found the not knowing when I have been on any of my 2ww one of the most frustrating experiences to live through!! I would take it a step at a time and be as positive as possible at each step. Good wishes for tomorrow hun.

I agree with all the other ladies. Good luck with whatever you decide to do, and I'll be thinking of you, hoping for a BFP!

Well, I had it drawn this morning, and requested for the nurse to leave me a message on the patient voicemail instead of just calling me like usual. That way I can check it when I get up enough courage. I sooooo want to know, but am just almost paralyzed with fear over having another early loss. This whole situation just STINKS!

Ibelieve,

Good for you for going and getting the blood drawn :D . Now to work up the courage to call for the results. My thoughts will be with you. I hope you get that BFP you are praying for AND I hope this one sticks for you. You absolutely deserve it! :angel:

Holly~

Good luck to you! I hope that you will overcome your fear and get that BFP:)
I am praying for you and DH! KUP
Pennie

glad to hear that you went in today. i'm anxiously awaiting the results when you're ready to share. good luck to you!!! :angel:

believe...
Have you had the courage to listen to your voice mail yet? I'm thinking of you. I know how you feel right now. I just got another BFN..this is my 10th cycle...I really had my hopes up this month...thought this was THE month. I hope you get great news!! Let us know soon:)

Good Luck! And let us know!

Ibelieve, I'm on the edge of my seat...Did you listen to the message? I'm praying for your BFP!!!! Please let us know the results when you are ready.

Holly~

I checked my results this morning, only because I started spotting though. I just knew it was another loss, so my prayer immediately turned to "Let it be negative." It was. I am relieved in a sense b/c it's not another loss, but surprised at how gutted I feel. I know it's only a 25% chance each cycle regardless, but the NP just kept saying how great my chances were with 4 huge follies. Now I wonder if I should have just gone and had the IUI, even though DH and I were arguing (yelling) about it. I can't remember if I told you guys, but he's against doing all the "scientific" stuff yet b/c I've gotten pg so easily before. But the Clomid is supposed to help me be able to sustain one, and I explained to him that it makes CM hostile and maybe require IUI, but he wanted to wait and see. So for peace I cancelled IUI. Stupid, stupid me. Now I wasted 4 precious follies. Thanks for thinking of me. I guess I get to go through all this torture again next month. Don't worry, I'll suffer in silence this time, I won't drag all of you through it again. ;)

I'm so sorry you even have to go through this. I can understand how a BFN would be less dissapointing than another loss. My thoughts are with you and your DH through this time. Try not to be so hard on yourself though. You and DH made the decision you thought was best for you. Maybe he will come around and be open to more procedures in time. It seems to be harder on some men.

I have a question though - I thought progesterone (or something that sounds like that) was supposed to help sustain a pregnancy and clomid was to help bring on ovulation? Maybe this is something you should ask your dr about...Or maybe one of the smart posters reading this can answer for us.

It's good that you are ready to try again for the next cycle. And don't even give a second thought about 'dragging us through it'...That is what we are HERE for...to be supported and to support others who are going through similar things and know what we are going through. We would only wonder how you are doing if you didn't share :angel: .

BABY DUST AND HUGS

Holly~

I second everything Holly said. I'm sorry you didn't get your BFP this month, but don't be hard on yourself. It's easy after the fact to look back and say, "We should have done this. We should have done that." You made the best decision for you at the time that you made it. I'm certain of that.

And yes -- we are here not only to celebrate victories but also as a support system. ALWAYS feel free to share your doubts, nervousness, fears, etc. We all are going through the same thing and we all understand. Of course, we'll also all be here to share in your good news when you get your BFP -- because I know you will get it!

ibelieve -

I'm sorry that you have to go through this. Believe me, I completely understand your frustration because my DH was the same way. He did not want to do IUI at all at first. Our RE told him that are chances with that were much better and we might be wasting time and money doing the Timed Intercouse thing. He had a change of heart and that was what worked for us.....which I was so grateful for because I know I could have never talked him into IVF.

Hang in there and don't worry about dragging us through anything. That is why we are on this board. To get and give support!

ibelieve--I also agree with all the other ladies. Don't beat yourself up about the past. Also, if you would have done IUI with your hubby still against it and it was still BFN, he might resent you for pushing him and then claim it still doesn't work. As hard as it is, I think it's better to wait until he's completely on board and then pursue it. He may be more open to it now? I will be thinking of you for your next cycle. I'm hoping you find a protocol that works for everyone and that you get your BFP.

Wow. Your responses brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for your kind words. Yes, this BFN hurt, but not nearly as bad as another loss. We will keep trying. But we may be forced to hold off on the Clomid. When I called to get the rx filled today, the nurse said she reviewed my ultrasound from last week and said I have 5 ovarian cysts. The initial report said normal and all follicles had collapsed, but after another look, that apparently was not so. So I go back Monday for another US to see if the cysts are gone after this AF. I will only be allowed to do Clomid if they are all gone. (We are doing Clomid to strengthen the quality of the egg. Weak egg = unhealthy embryo = miscarriage. It also helps the progesterone level, as mine was 31 this month, and before it's never been over 15.) I will let you know. It's so great to have a 'safe haven' where everybody understands. :)

believe

Soo sorry believe...I know how you feel...I was really hoping this was the month and got my hopes up but mine also turned out to be a BFN...lets stay strong together and we will pray for BFPs next cycle...:)

ibelieve - I am very sorry to hear the news. My heart, thoughts and very best wishes are with you! We've decided to take a break in the process, I'll find out tonight "officially" that it's a BFN. I'm basically certain at this point because I have AF and it looks like she's brought ALL her luggage!! Very painful too. But after the winter, we'll be back at the Dr's and going for round 3 in IUI's!!
Take care of yourself believe and here's hoping that all those cysts are gone soon so you can get back to it and post a BFP for us to read!! =) :angel:

ibelieve -

Reading your post was all to familiar. My DH was not even ready to accept the sa results let alone explore options. He heard the negative and of course it went straight to his head. Completely unwilling to talk about it or anything with me for almost a week (I almost lost my marriage). I think for some men the thought and reality of infertility is just unbearable. Luckily he snapped out of it and is completely on board now. Heck, he wanted to jump right into IVF after the first failed IUI (didn't want to waste anymore time or disappointment I guess :) No, we're not doing that, but keep your head up. Hopefully he'll realize that having a child and expanding your love and family is well worth a little blow to his ego.

PS - my re does progesterone supositories after each iui as a precaution. Starting 2 dpiui until either test reads neg or continue through first trimester (just to be safe). Might be worth asking your re about if you have a history of loss. Anything to help. :angel: