I AM FAT. FULL STOP!!!! I have been trying bras on today...as if a 34D wasn't bad enough...I fit beter into a 36D for christ sake!!! PLUS my belly is all wobbly and digusting. I hate me...how on earth did I ever let my bf see me!!!! URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOTS OF HUGS http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/bang.gif

Don't let size numbers bring you down...everybody is a different body shape, trust me hon, size means nothing.

As for your boyfriend---he loves you for who you are, not what you look like. He looks at you and sees the gorgeous woman he is falling in love with. He loves you...all of you...body, mind and soul...I hope you can remember this.

Good luck, and don't give up, everybody has bad days.

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

(hugs) Hon, I'm so sorry that you are having such a hard time. Remeber, that when you look into the mirror and what you see isn't what others see. Eating disorders are good at showing us as gross and fat to our eyes.
As for your bra size, it's a normal size.
Take Care.

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A big hug to you.
Just because your breasts are big, (like me), does not mean you are fat. Breasts are sort of sized by genetics, so I have realized mine dont shrink when I lose weight.
How could your boyfriend see you? I bet he loves it-guys love breasts. Ive learned as women we are much too critical of our bodies, guys just love being close to them, they dont pick them apart like we do!
And I bet you have soooo many girls who are jealous because they want bigger breasts.
So please dont worry about it, I bet you look great.

You make me jealous girl!! I wish I had big boobs like that!! Mine are not small, but they could be bigger.

emmie, I have known you from this board for a long time, I know you are a beautiful person within and I bet you are beautiful on the outside as well-I wish you weren't so hard on yourself(hugs)

Sorry I didnt reply to this post a while ago...I couldnt really face myself after it. Thanx Cutenbrat. Sweetie...trust me...noone should want big boobs!!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gifx

Take care of yourself hon and be proud of yourself. You were honest with all of us about what was bothering you and that's not always easy to do.

((((((((((((((Faith)))))))))))))))))

right back at you hon ((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
I wish I could give you my e-mail, but that's against board policy. Please, keep posting so I know how you are doing.

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Worshipper...Please dont not think you are Fat! You are beautiful just like my daughter is. At 14 my dentist called me after a check up on her teeth and informed me she had bullimia!! A dentist?? Well it was true he could tell by the wear on her upper front teeth from the vomiting. He said it was going on for about a year by the wear there. Where the hell was i??? I didnt notice a thing. She was sent to a support group after all the health tests to make sure she hadnt damaged her system. She is now 18 and has gone from 200lbs at 14 to about 135lbs her problem was genetic on her fathers side. I heard her so many times say she was FAT and UGLY it brought me to tears that she didnt see the beautiful person I saw. We are all beautiful inside. If you ever want to chat I will be around. My oldest daughter was anorexic and my middle one was bullimic. So had a bit of experience.

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Autumn

Hey Autumn..thank u for your post. I come here coz I feel everyone here is kinda like a family..I came here a while a go to ask about my eating (a LOOOONG time ago)..so..despite me thinking that I haven't an ED I still come here. I do hate myself...I AM fat- noone understands that fat people do exist..I am not talking bull here http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif trust me!! IT IS REAL TO SEE AND TOUCH!!!!!

Have a merry xmas/thanks giving...whatever u call it!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif once again...going to the UK early tomorrow. Take care and have a great time!!

Hey Worshipper,
It's great that you still visit the boards even though you don't think you have an ED. ED is not about a particular thing like anorexia or bulimia or compulsive eating disorder (which is what I have) or binge eating disorder. ED is about your relationship to your body and to food. If you find that this board helps you then that's the most important thing.

And a word about size - I always get outraged when I see the size 0 racks now (and unfortunately there are a lot of them now in stores...). Think about it - if you're a size 0 you don't exist, for Christ's sake! I feel like pinning up a sign on the window, "Maralyn Monroe was a size 12!!!".

Take care and have a great Xmas!

Tam

Hey Tam,
I like my size 0's w/o them I would have to shop in the kids section(which I do at the stores that dont' have them) I used to dream about the day I could fit into them and now I do--yet, I still feel huge..anyways, just had to say there are some of us out there that do buy them..I agree though, it is sad that there is a such thing...just another way for the world to tell us thin is in, thin is all, thin is beauty and so on...sickening