Hi everyone. I've been so focused on fertility issues I've let a number of health problems slide. I hope these don't come back to bite me in the bum...

My regular doctor found a right breast lump 2 years ago during my annual breast/pap exam. At the time, I couldn't even feel the lump. After mammograms and referral to a surgeon eventually, a year had passed and I had a biopsy last year. It came back as fibrous tissue.

But over the past year, I realized I could feel a lump and it seems to have grown, so I had my recheck appointment with the surgeon today. The doc also agreed the lump seemed bigger, did another ultrasound and did 3 or 4 more biopsies. The doc said if the biopsies come back inconclusive, he'll have to take out the mass of tissue...which is like half my right breast! Wow. Then he examined my left breast and feels some lumps over there now too. So I have to go back next week for my left breast, and he may biopsy that one as well. What really freaked me out is that the doc said he felt nervous about my right breast...which that never makes a patient feel better. I'd rather he keep that to himself until the biopsy results are back personally.

What's really stupid, is here I am dealing with a possibility of breast cancer...and all I can think about is I hope it doesn't interfere with my upcoming injectable/IUI cycle for infertility. Which is really stupid, because obviously you don't want to get pregnant if you have breast cancer. But having a baby has been such a focus for awhile now, that even when there may be something else more serious going on, I can't stop thinking about infertility. I just have to focus on staying calm and positive...and if I have to take a break from fertility treatments so be it. But I just wanted to let you all know. I'll still be starting my injectable cycle if I get my period this weekend, but I probably won't have the first round of biopsy results back until early next week. Please pray for good results on my biopsies.

Goodness -- I'll be praying hard for you on both fronts -- your biopsies and infertility. Stay strong and positive and please share the results of your biopsies as soon as you hear ...

Oh Heyknack, I am SO sorry to hear about this. As I started reading your post, I thought...Yep, I can relate to becoming engrossed with the IF battle and letting other things go...And then I read about your lumps and biopsies. Good Lord, you are such a strong woman! I whine about a simple cold...I cannot even imagine. Please don't think you are stupid though for still wanting to progress with your fertility treatments. You cannot help what your heart wants. And your life shouldn't have to be put on hold because of a possible anything. I'll be praying really hard for you that your biopsies come back all clear and you can breathe a nice big sigh of relief. Please keep us posted. ((HUGS))

Holly~

So sorry to hear what you are going through Heyknack,I understand all too well the overriding desire for a baby can take over your life, but please look after yourself for your baby when it comes will need a strong and healthy mother.I am praying that you are given the all clear next week :angel:

Thanks for all your replies and kind words. :) I will certainly post the biopsy results as soon as I get them.

Yahoo! My doctor just called me (poor guy's still at work), and the biopsy results on my right breast were benign (not cancer). And he said we do not have to go in and remove any more. I'm sooooo excited and happy!!! No cancer, and I can continue my IF treatments (I'm actually CD 3 now, starting Gonal F tonight). Now I just have to have my left breast biopsied this Wednesday...hopefully all will be well with that side also. Just wanted to share that with you all. :)

thats such great news!!!! hopefully u will have 2 sets of good news this month!!!! (next month ;P) one good negative and a great BIG POSITIVE on the other hand.... :angel: :angel: :angel:

HeyKnack
That is wonderful news. I am so glad and relieved that it came back negative. WOOHOO for Gonal F!:blob_fire :blob_fire I hope this month passes fast so you can get that BFP, Is he keeping you on the same dose? Did you get to check your lining prior to starting? I know that the futher you get away from clomid the lining gets better and better. YEAH, I am so excited for you!
Pennie:angel:

:blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire That is excellent news Heyknack! I'm so relieved for you. Thank you for letting us know. Best wishes for your BFP this cycle - you deserve it :angel: .

Holly~

THANK GOODNESS!!! I am so happy for you!! :bouncing: :bouncing:
Obviously, I'm thrilled that the lump is benign -- because there's absolutely nothing more important than your health and well being. But I'm also glad to hear that you have the go-ahead to continue your treatments -- we ALL understand the strong need to be working towards a resolution to our IF.
Good luck tomorrow with your next biopsy -- you will be in my thoughts. Please let us know those results when you hear. Best wishes and baby dust to you on your next cycle. May your ovaries and follies embrace the Gonal-F wholeheartedly! :D

Well, more good news. I went for my left breast biopsy yesterday, and my surgeon said he couldn't feel any lumps anymore in my left breast. Said I must get more lumpy with hormones. LOL. Figures. But I was really happy not to have to have my other side biopsied!! :)

Pennie-- Yes, I am on the same dose of Gonal F (150 IU in evenings). My lining was thin again on day 3 (3.4mm, ugh). I hope it really thickens up fast. I'm a little nervous though, because I was at 5 or 5.5mm at the start last cycle (but that was on day 1 and I was still having heavy flow, so maybe it thinned out by day 3). Anyway, thanks for the happy thoughts! I hope this cycle goes well. How are you feeling?

I'm glad you posted that Heyknack. I was just thinking about you last night and I was going to ask you when you were having the other biopsy done. Terrific news that you won't be needing to!!! I hope your lining starts to thicken up for you so you can have more good news for us soon :D .
Take care of yourself!
Holly~

Heyknack,
I had been waiting for your follow-up post on this -- thinking that it would be this week -- and just realized that you already posted -- duh!!! Anyhow, REALLY glad to hear that you're OK. These hormones wreak havoc!!!
Good luck as you proceed with your treatment -- and here's to a thick lining for you! How's it going?

Hey Cubed and Holly, thanks for asking. I'm actually going for my IUI tomorrow, yay! My lining was ok/good for me yesterday at 7.4 mm (or 7.6??), and I had 2-3 mature follicles. I was hoping for a thicker lining, but my follicle sizes seem to get to the designated size before I thicken up as much as some women. But it's still not bad for me (I had a 3.9mm thickness once on Clomid at this stage, so I'll take it). And I guess my RE likes the lining to be at least 7mm before trigger (I always thought it was 8mm minimum, but ok!). So, wish me luck!! Cubed, how's your 2ww going??

Heyknack --

I was out of the office this morning and am just now getting a chance to peek at the board. You're in my thoughts today for an IUI that does the trick this month -- GOOD LUCK!!!

Re: my 2ww -- I am kind of an emotional/hormonal wreck, but each day I know I'm getting closer to an answer, so I'm hanging on to that!

Anyhow -- like I said -- good luck today! LOTS of sticky baby dust to you -- sprinkle, sprinkle!!!

Thanks Cubed. The IUI today went well. I had very little cramping, barely felt it. The nurse said my cervix looked very "vascular" though and that it bled the minute she touched it, so I don't know what that would be from? But it shouldn't hold up my chances for pregnancy I guess. So I'm hoping.

I know the 2ww is really challenging I think. Every day you just want to know yes or no...of course desperately hoping for a BFP. I think it's harder the last week or so, but maybe that's just me. The first week I don't think much about it, but the second week, each day I wonder "am I"?? Ughhhhh, the dreaded but loved 2ww. Good luck. I'll be hoping for BFP's for all of us!!