I am a 17 year old female who dealt with anorexia 2 years ago. I went through depression and am now in remission. Still, I think I have an ED. My main problem is that I don't want to eat in front of anyone, except my mom (maybe because I'm so close to her). Also I always want to eat at home, unless I'm out shopping with my mom. This eating problem causes me to not go out a lot for fear that there won't be something healthy when I go out to eat or we'll be eating at a different time than I'm used to. Does anyone else experience this? Do I still have an eating disorder?

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"Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it." ~Charles Swindoll

Hi Sehsun!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wave.gif

First of all...a big congrats on doing so well with batteling anorexia and being in recovery for 2 whole years! That's such a wonderful thing. Go You!!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/bouncing.gif

Second of all, wanting to eat alone or eat only at home because of immense fear is a huge sign of an eating disorder. Whether or not you *still* have an eating disorder or you are *developing* the ed again, I can not say...but the question you must ask yourself is "is this behavior normal?" or "is this behavior/fear keeping me from living a normal life?" You deserve to be completely happy...and if needing to eat alone is keeping you from living your life the way a normal 17 year old should, then that's not a good thing. You've already beaten the hardest part of the monster...you can do the little parts that are remaining. I believe in you!! Good luck and let us know how you're doing, k? http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

hey sehsun! i'm about your age, and i know exactly what you mean. i never eat in front of other people, mainly because i'm a bit worried what they'll think, like if they will think i eat too much or too little (my mom bugs me a lot about what i eat cause shes noticed im a bit too skinny)

ur not alone : )
hugs ~ angel

Hello,

after getting over my anorexia, for a long time I went through different eating behaviors that were kind of on the borderline of being disordered. Sometimes it is really hard to tell. The eating at specific times has often been a biggie for me too.
I guess if it interferes with your life and makes you unhappy, it is something you may want to work on.

Kathrin

Wow everybody....thanks so much for the encouraging comments! I appreciate them.

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"Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it." ~Charles Swindoll

I also have a problem eating in front of people,I have been fighting with an eating disorder too,but since 99 I have went from 93lbs to 120lbs- slowly the weight has been going up, but it's so easy to fall into a rut, so I really try to eat in front of others but if someone comments or makes a rude statement then it makes me upset and I have to think if I'm eating too much or something.At work I even take breaks by myself so I don't have to deal with people.The point is I do what I have to do to get better, if that means eating by myself, then I do it.Just keep up the good work and keep eating!!!