I hate lying in bed unable to get out
I hate feeling emotionless
I hate not enjoying sex, and making my boyfriend feel insecure
I hate it when people look down on me for not being in education and not having a job
I hate being so shy
I hate not having the energy or desire to speak to people at times
I hate not being able to cry sometimes
I hate feeling stupid
I hate that i'm making my boyfriend worried about me
I hate that i somtimes don't care about anything or anyone because i feel so emotionless
I hate feeling like i complain


I hate this depression.

:angel:

Ditto zoe. I know how you feel.

You know, it says there are 16 people viewing this board, so why do I feel like we're the only two on here at the moment. Or is it that there are just a lot of people who just like to gawp and read the boards thinking 'god look how miserable they all are'. I'm feeling so negative right now and that's probably not what it is at all but I can't help it.

When no one answers or even read a post I've made it makes me so paranoid. I think why? Did I say the wrong thing? Have I upset someone? Do they think I'm just being stupid?

x-Bliss-x

i deleted this post.

I think people don't know what to say sometimes. I get paranoid alot and I worry that if i write a possitive reply people will see it as all happy clappy but if i wright a negative one i will bring others down.

but when i am not being paranoid i realise that neither negative or postive posts upset me so they shouldnt effect others and there is no need to worry about what i wright.