Over the 4 years of depression problems i have I seem to get bouts of bad depression. The other times i am either happy, quite hyper or depressed. the bouts last for about 6 months at a time averagely. Somtimes i can;t seem to find the triggers of depression and other times i can. This time i do know the tigger. But i have a hard time understanded why it caused such bad depression. My boyfriend said once he thought my sister was pretty. that was all. that's what started my deep depression. And it was been going on for 6 months. Even though i feel i got over it (what is to "get over" about that i have no clue) i still feel depressed. I feel it's ridiculas. who gets deepy depressed over a sentence? Is it possible my depression is chemical and i think it's to do with what my boyfriend said, but it's not really? I am not holding a grugde again my boyfriend or my sister. I don't feel angry at any of them anymore. I am still feeling the depression though. I have stopped my meds a few days ago, and i feel worse. But why did i need meds in the first place? Why could i not be normal and laugh it off like most people.I have spend alot of time questioning myself to why it bothered me so much, so far i can not think of a good reason. Would i benefit from therapy? Would therapy help me understand why i feel this way? In a way the depression feels situational, but it's not like it was a tramatic experience. Does it seem like it's more chemical or situational?

Thank you for reading.

I think it is the way we respond to a situation that makes us sad. For example there have been times when people have given me a compliment and i have chosen to take it in a negative way.

what i try to do now is take even the bad things in a possitive way. for example the advice i would give you is to chose to think that your boyfriend is very comfortable around you to say that to you and that is a good thing

hope your doing ok :angel:

Zoe, try this for a fit. Did you have sibling rivalry with your sister? Are you close in age? Sibling rivalry is caused because the siblings are competing for their parent's love. The siblings don't feel that there is enough love to go around so whatever love the sibling gets, this comes out of the other siblings share. Maybe this one sentence relates to this big issue, so one sentence brings up a huge issue that really bothers you. So do you feel that your parents don't love you enough or that they don't accept you? Counseling is always good for depression! Strong unexpressed feelings can cause depression.

My sister is 14 i am 18. We are not that close in age. I know i do have sibling rivary! i also feel competitive over my older sister who is 20. I used to be more jelous of her, but now it seems i'm jealous over my younger sister also. Infact i am jealous of alot of females. I'm not really sure where it comes from.
You're right i do feel i need to compete for love from my parents. I somtimes feel my parents love my older sister more, but i try to tell my self i'm just being stupid. I've always been a very shy person. And i'm never the center of atention, but that is due to how i act not that people just don't like me,i know. It's strange how i know alot of the factors of what's causing my to feel this way, yet i still can not calm down. I think i have improved with the jealously aspect though, as i was much more jealous when my ex said things about girls ect. But i told my self i needed to calm down, as i want this current relationship to work so much. I Had my first sexual experience when i was 14 (not actaul sex though) and although at the time i didn;t think that it bothered me, i think that in a way it has messed me up in the way i view sex. And maybe the thing he said was related in some way, just a thought. Somtimes i love sex with my boyfriend, other times the thought of sex makes me feel pretty sick. I wish i had been older when i first did sexual things, so i would have been able to deal with it better, emotionaly. Basically i think there is alot of hidden emotions inside me.

Thank you crimson and sannah for replying, it's always nice to hear other people's perspective on things.