What do you actually want out of your recovery from your eating disorder? Gaining weight, losing weight, modifying your diet, beliefs? Write it here, and we'll share and strive for something we can actually see short-term, rather than just wonder when this mystical "recovery" is going to come about.

i'd like to loose weight, but most of all i want to stop feeling guilty everytime i put something in my mouth. i don't know if this is an achievable goal or not!

I too feel guilty after putting something in my mouth even if it's healthy but I eat too much of the healthy food.
I have an intense fear of getting FAT. My friedns think I am crazy for feeling fat and being insecure tell me have great body but I don't see it. I look in a mirror and feel icky.

I do exercise like a mad woman when I think I eat too much which is everyday
If I skip a day of exercise - I am guilty too

What a wonderful idea!!!

My goals for recovery....
1. Maintain my weight at the weight I'm currently at.
2. Follow my meal plan.
3. Be honest and open with my therapist, nutritionist, and family.
4. Keep taking my meds.
5. Stop using laxatives. (I bought more http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif )
6. Continue to eat so I can have enough energy to go on vaca this summer!!! YIPPEEE!!!
7. Relax.
8. Realize food is medicine, and I don't have to feel guilty for giving myself food.
9. Realize I am deserving.
10. And finally...Be able to finally LOVE myself and body!!!!

Boy...I just realized I have a long way to go. OH well!!! I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!

-Carlie

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Scales are for fish.

What a wonderful idea!!!
My goals for recovery....
1. Maintain my weight at the weight I'm currently at.
2. Follow my meal plan.
3. Be honest and open with my therapist, nutritionist, and family.
4. Keep taking my meds.
5. Stop using laxatives. (I bought more )
6. Continue to eat so I can have enough energy to go on vaca this summer!!! YIPPEEE!!!
7. Relax.
8. Realize food is medicine, and I don't have to feel guilty for giving myself food.
9. Realize I am deserving.
10. And finally...Be able to finally LOVE myself and body!!!!

Boy...I just realized I have a long way to go. OH well!!! I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!

-Carlie

CARLIE -

GOOD LUCK WIHT YOUR GOALS
THOSE ARE HEACY AND # 10 I COULD NEVER HAVE THAT GOAL. I WISH I COULD FOLLOW ALL THOSE

AT CURRENT I CANNOT AFFORD A NUTRIONIST BUT WANT OT GO TO ONE

[This message has been edited by Zesty (edited 05-08-2003).]

I don't eat that much right now. I've been restricting a little more than usual. My meal plan however is for 1800 calories, but I haven't been following it. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif Eating is getting really hard again because I think I'm fat.

-Carlie

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Scales are for fish.

[This message has been edited by Zesty (edited 05-08-2003).]

oh, lilray... You are not fat - I bet you are not.
I think I am fat.
I barely consume a lot of calories throughout the day but then I go home and eat a healthy dinner but a lot more
Like today I had a protein shake low cal, low card, low sugar and for breakfast one rice cake with sugar free jelly...
I drink a lot of water and after work if it does not rain I will walk 3 or 6 miles - I walk very fast. and then go to the gym too.

My goal is to sop burging and to lose weight! I also want to actually go to my counselor and not lie about anything. My ultimate goal is to be able to eat at like a McDonalds with my friends and not feel guilty! I really don't see that happening. Oh and not defining myself by how I look rather than who I am inside!!!

My goals are

.to stop binging
.to not feen for food
.to not throw up
.to be able to not starve myself when i feel fat and to find a balance.
.to be able to if once in a while I have a cheat like cake or something to just have one not 20.and for days after that be binging just cause I did it one day.
.to love myself more.

[This message has been edited by mi2082 (edited 05-09-2003).]

My PROBLEM is that I set big goals. One friend told me that all through life, I pretty just have to think about what would be fun for the next hour, and I'm sure I can apply this to eating as well.

I'm just gonna worry about smaller units of time, setting goals for a day of happiness instead of a month of what I should weigh.

I just want to be happy with myself and not resent people who are seemingly carefree.

I just want to eat normal, i mean is that so much to ask for, i dont understand why it is impossible for me.

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Sara

I want to beable to stay home for just one day and not do any exercise and not eat the apatment inside and out. Just to relax physically and mentally for just one day!!! I'm tired http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/tired.gif Andrea

I'm here for overeating rather than undereating. So my good news might not be the same as some of yours. Don't be discouraged, I'm just trying to share and give hope. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif I'm trying to lose weight with the healthiest methods possible. I did a ton of biking and playing tennis this week, and I lost 6½ pounds (3 kilos) in 7 days. From what I can gather, the weight loss this week was a bit too fast. I'm probably undereating just slightly to compensate for a few years of overeating abuse, but I'll find "centre" soon enough. I've now lost 37½ pounds (17 kilos) after two years of much so called yo-yo dieting, and I have approximately other 30-40 (13-18 kilos) to go. But I'm feeling very strong mentally AND physically, and I want you to know, you can ALL reach your food and fitness goals. It doesn't matter WHAT they are.

Hope the metric conversions weren't too clumsy to read.

Love,
Sean.