Okay well... It may just be a habit i dunno, i do it even when i dont think about it but last night i tried not placeing it in my left hand but its like i couldnt.... it didnt feel right. Also, when I clean everything has a spot, an exact spot.... I have to place everything in the same spot everytime i clean. If I get something new I have to find new places for everything, and then I keep it like that until something new. When someone trys to help me clean its like it drives me mad.. i seriously feel very tensed. Its like that when I cook too, no one can help me. Even if I want the help with cleaning or cooking i cant take them not doing it the way i think it should be done. Maybe its just my routine.... Im use to it and dont like when it changes.... i really dont know. I didnt even really notice how I picked up my food/spoon/fork until my boyfriend pointed it out to me. Oh and when someone does clean i always go from room to room replacing everything in the order i think it should be in. So yeah.... maybe this is a little more information that could help.

Oh yeah- i failed to mention, when i find something on the internet.... like this website or anything such as this.... i cant stop looking at it.... i can sit here for hours on end looking up things that has nothing to do with me. for example, i was on my space the other day and i ran across people who has spaces for their animals and i couldnt stop browseing threw them. It wasnt because i thought these animals were cute or whatnot.... its like that with many things. I just felt the need to keep looking at them all until i didnt see one i hadnt seen yet...