on monday, my figure skating coach called my mom and told her that i had to show up at the rink right after school. this was a surprise to me so i wasnt expecting this when my mom picked me up from school. she brought food for me to eat on the way there but of course what she brought didnt fit into ed's meal plan so i made an excuse and said that i had to go home and go to to the bathroom. but really i had to make the food that would fit into ed's plan. (uggg hes rediculous) so b/c of this, i was in a rush and when i was getting in the car...BAM goes my fingers in the car door. so instead of skating, i spent my night in the emergency room HYSTERICAL crying. my fingers were the size of friken balloons and it it hurt SO BAD. as i was sitting there crying, i realized it all happened because of ed. if i just would've eaten what my mom brought me and not be to obedient to ed, i would've been fine. i find it so rediculous that i went so far out of my way for ed. sorry if it sounds like im venting but i just find it so rediculous and i really just have that crappy "i feel sorry for myself" feeling. ughh i hope one day this is all over.

OWW I am sorry!! My fingers got smashed in the door once, not a car door, but still. I was rushed to the doctors for it.. very painful and not pretty! Hope ya heal soon.

hey pinstriped
i really hope youre ok...darned ed - hurting you even more. try not to be too hard on yourself - at least you can think now - i do want to eat, i do want to get better, i am having some problems around certain foods but im working on it and one day (not too long) i WILL eat the food mum brings along to training - dispite the ed.
you take care, and be kind to yourself
chookie

Hang in there~ It is okay. Beating yourself up is not what one needs to do when you already are hurting physically and mentally. Just take it for what the situation is worth, and move forward from it. You now know what to do, and how to plan ahead with your mom- and how to stick with the eating plan schedule; just make sure you can follow through with it. You can do it! :)

Skating. That is a very dedicated sport. I admire you for doing something like that. Enjoy your life, and moments while you are young and savor it all; life is too short not to. Have fun while doing the things you enjoy! :angel:

Coffeegirl