I was quite overweight a year ago and was determined to lose the weight. But I wanted to do it the right way be eating and exercising sensibly so the weight loss would come off slowly and stay off permanently! And now I have lost 90 pounds and that's fantastic. I have had so many compliments all around. I bought brand new clothes. My life has changed so much. People treat me so much better than i have ever been treated in my life!! I am 36 years old and have been overweight almost all my life. I still feel I could lose about 30-40 pounds more but the novelty of the attention I got with losing the first initial weight was so overwhelming, I am literally afraid to eat! I know this is dangerous but I can't help it. I've heard how bad it is to not eat... but I am scared to death to gain back what i had lost in one year. I'm getting weaker everyday, and because I suffer seizures, the medication i'm on causes a lack of appetite on top of it... so problem is twice as bad! I lie to people about eating when i'm not. I feel guilty. I drink lots of water, hoping that will sustain me but it's stupid, i know. If i know what i'm doing is bad... y am i doing it then??! I don't know if this qualifies as an eating disorder but here it is....Can anybody relate to this?

i know that the compliments & attention u get when u lose weight are in themselves addictive. u just want to keep going & going until u find yourself in trouble. did u work w/your doctor when u were losing weight? because u definitely should be working w/some professional to make sure u dont overdo it. it sounds like u really arent "losing weight sensibly" n e more 'cuz filling yourself up on liquids (at least try some protein drinks w/vitamins instead of water!!) & feeling weak all the time is dangerous.

i understand all your conflicting feelings! good luck!