After almost a year with very minimal purging and starving the cycle has begun again. I am not classified as bulimic (because I dont binge) and neither as anorexic (because I purge). I usually eat very minimally and when I do eat something, no matter in what amount, I purge. I thought that the worst was over and that I was on my way to beating these disorders. I find myself constantly worrying about my weight and forever hanging over the toilet purging. I know all the consequences of purging and not eating so therefor i should think what im doing is illogical but I dont. I makes perfect sense in my head. That food cannot under any circumstances stay in my stomach. When I look in the mirror after eating I can swear that I've gained weight. I'm terrified of becoming fat, and I have so many more important things to worry about. Sorry for ranting like this, but I know some of you will understand where im coming from. Thanks for listening.
Much love
Tanya

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No one cares if your miserable so you might as well be happy