my mom and i dont have a great relationship or anything and ever since she found out about the theraphy stuff, im always depressed or selfish or something with her....but she has always been at me about my weight and now that im back in school she cant watch me as much so she makes it a point to call me and ask if im losing weight, or cutting down, or exercising, what am i eating etc...she tells me to eat under 1000 cals and to write down what i eat aand everything, how far can she push me before i end up in a hospital http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif i take what she tells me to the max and fix it to fit what im doing anyway...she is happy when i lose weight and leaves me alone for a while but then its always back to the same thing and she wonders why i dont like answering the phone when she calls me http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/dizzy.gif its not fair to go out to dinner and half way through she tells me to "slow down" like i was eatting all that much anyway, i dont like being watched becausse it makes me nervous but how come i have to be singled out? as if i need something else pushing at me...oh well i guess i already know what will kill me but if it makes her happy for me to be thin so be it...

oh well just my vent for the week

tata
ivy

ps hope everyone has a good weekend http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Hey ivy, i'm not following you around lol but i visit this board once in a while http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif , that situation w/ your mom is horrible..wow i can't believe your mother is telling you to eat so little..that sounds like a tough position to be in, my dad doesn't tell me not to eat but growing up..many times when i would grab something to eat he would make the comment that i shouldn't eat that or i'll gain 10lbs and then laugh..or when we were watching tv and he saw animals on tv he'd point out to one (for exemple a cow or something) and say look that's you and then laugh..i would get so upset but the more upset i got the more he laughed...didn't he care at all about how i felt?? errr o.k now i'm venting..i shouldn't be talking about myself here cause i wanted to offer words of support to you..hmmm but i don't know what to say...except i feel your pain and your right thats not fair at all..here's a big hug ((((((((((((ivy)))))))))))))) i hope your feeling better. Gotta go..getting tired..i'll see you on the other board later or tomorrow or whenever http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/confused.gif

hey fallen

thanks for writing, i was just getting my vent out dont mind me http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif im sorry your dad says mean things to you too though, its not nice/fair/cool and all that..i hate when i dont even get a hi on the phone anymore, its either whats wrong with you or are you losing weight http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif i dont know, but i should be used to it, so no biggie lol just a part of staying alive! but ya i started on this board before there was even an si board...we go waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back lol

see ya on the other board http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif