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I am so gratefull for all of you,and you may not know it.
about a month ago i had to detox off hydros 10mg about 4-5 a day.i didn't post much,but got encouragment,i had a small slip 10 days later for one day but got back on track.

anyway,my mom is dying from copd plus plenty more.she,s no more than 80 lbs.and 76yrs old.
everyone saw it comming a while.a week and a half ago,it all went bad.at the hospitol she stayed till i had to go againt her wishes and move her from the hospitol to a home.
Only profesionals can daily care for her.
she is in another state.i've been traveling 2 and a half hours each way.

i couldn't move her thats her home town she could never make the trip.


what i really need to say is thank you.
if i was still activly using i could never have gone through this.desisions,heartache taking responsability .
i am one gratefull daughter to GOD,my support.
will i ever lapse again? i would hope not,but for today mature decisions were soberly made.on hydros my logik would be taken over with emotion.i've cryed a ton.but i did the right thing.

please pray for my mom to feel some peace. it won't be long she can't eat and has refused everything...except to be comfortable.

girl

This must be rough on you I know. Hang in there and remember you did not want her in any pain and God will be taking care of her from now on! So she will have a peacfull life watching over you to make sure you stay straight! She now can see everything you are doing and she will let you know when you are being bad. Just remember your mom loved you and it doesn't matter if you know it is going to happen or if it is un planned, it is still a very hard thing to go through. You can do it! This is a time God is testing you and I know you can pass that test:angel: Their watching you and your mom :angel:

You are doing great and you are doing a thing that is very difficult but is probably the right decission:

I hope I did not say anything wrong as I never know what to say in the case of a loss. It is just plain and simple sad