Okay, so we're supposed to put back on the pounds, right? But we don't wanna put on all the fat too, am I also correct? Although I know that I NEED some body fat for my body to function normally, an excessive amount isn't good either. And the fastest way to gain would be to eat candy bars and chips and ice cream. But that's unhealthy... so what is the healthiest way to gain weight with the least amount of fat?

I'm making my meal plan for tomorrow to hopefully avoid binging again, I was pretty bad today ALL day, actually. At 92 lbs., how many calories SHOULD I be consuming? My food list for the day consists of this:

Breakfast: apple cream of wheat, 1 banana, 1/2 cup orange juice
Snack: grapes
Lunch: yogurt, 1 banana
Snack: 1 quakers rice cake, 9 mini quaker ranch chips
Dinner: healthy choice frozen meal, 1 cup oranage juice

It comes to a total of 922 calories and 9.6 grams of fat. I don't know what else to add into the plan. Writing it I was like "that's a lot of food..." but then I look at the total and think "Umm... that's under even for my usual.." (which is 1,100).

EmLittrell- Okay I am going to be blunt. Please do not be offended as I am a recovering anorexic also...

No...that is not enough food. Seriously, toddlers eat more than that. People who are lying in hospital beds all day are fed atleast 1300 calories a day. And think about it...they don't even move! I also want to add that meal plans are very personable. You need a healthy meal plan that works for YOU. And I think that a professional can help you with that aspect. A nutrtionist can get your weight history and help you with a plan that will keep you strong and healthy for years to come!

Are you ready to recover? Because the most important thing is if YOU are truly ready. This is something that you need to put your heart and soul into! This is your life.

I struggle every single day with my eating disorder. But I made a decision that I want to be healthy. And I can't do it alone--- I need the support of my family, a nutritionist, and a therapist--- a whole team! Please seek help. And you know that all of us on this board are all here to support eachother!
I can't give you much advice on WHAT and HOW MUCH you should be eating. But I DO know that you need to be eating more. Think variety. Lot's of fruits, vegetables, grains, good protein, dairy, and even some treats, too! You need the wonderful nutrients found in food to keep and sustain your body!

Again, I am sorry for being blunt. But we are all looking out for eachother! :)

em., i have to agree with applecheek - get a really good team of professionals to help, as someones meal plan may not suit you - get one tailored to your needs.
also, you cant simply just gain muscle - this isnt healthy either...our bodies need some fat to function - as you said.
yes, i have said this in a nother post to you, and yes your weight is very low so please get some help and try and have more than 1000cal a day - your body is running in starvation mode and it can wreck your body - trust me im not sure if i can have kids or if i have osteoporosis...
take care - we only have one body in our lifetime - treat it with care
love chookie

Thanks for you support guys. I ended up not eating EVERYTHING on my already short list. Like I didn't have my dinner or my rice cake things, and I skipped out on the grapes in the daytime.

BUT..

I snacked a lot, I ate a lot of what I didn't plan to, like I had a craving for a sandwich, and since I'm around food all the time (I work in a deli LOL - go figure) I made myself a ham and turkey sub and had that instead of my tv dinner.

And then when I got home, I wasn't even HUNGRY, yet it's like outa habit that when I get home I HAVE to eat or snack or do SOMETHING with food. I was gonna pound my head against the wall cuz I was TRYING to avoid binging again. So I checked my email, checked my boards, took a shower - all in vain cuz I still wanted to splurge. SOO.. what I did is I ate the grapes I didn't eat earlier, just to satisfy that need of munching. And I have no guilt feelings today. YAY!!!!! :) My brother finally came over yesterday and picked up the candy bowl I made him from Halloween. I gave him mostly all my favorite candy so I wouldn't overeat on them, keeping the small things like suckers, jollyranchers, twizzlers, and sweettarts.

But all in all, ESTIMATING.. I think I ate approximately 1,500 worth. And I tried to avoid the scale, but it called to me.. I dunno why when I weighed myself this morning. LOL It said 92 and then tonight it was 92.5, but I think that is just food & water weight. :rolleyes:

BY THE WAY... about cheese! I notice like on all my cheese at work, like an ounce of cheese has like 9 grams of fat in it, depending. Is cheese a healthy fat, or is that a clog all my arteries type of fat? lol

GRRR... sucks to be me, I binged again tonight on REESES. Mmm They sure were good though! I keep saying "tomorrow I will start over" so I don't feel as bad, but then I always do that and stay in a cycle. :dizzy: I'm dizzzzzzzzy. lmao

I'm just getting realllyy fed up here. So STARTING RIGHT NOW.. I will master the ability to say NO and I will NOT let food (especially candy lol) tell me what to do. Why should I let an inanimate object control me? That's CRAZY TALK. I'm above that, so watch out hershey's..... I have the POWER. :cool: