Last night..my mam rang me and told me that the guy that I grew up with has died. He fell from a tree whilst picking conkers and internally bled and so they couldn't save him. Then there's my step-sister who may have to be rushed into hospital coz she has a very very large ovarian cyst. Everything is just geting ontop of me..the loss of Matthew, my weight, eating, my family constantly being stressed, school work, depression..I just can't stand all this!!!!! I am so down right now.

Sorry..just

hey em

sorry you are feeling so bad right now, but im thinking of you and i hope your days get better soon

ivy

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Rainbow

If I could catch a rainb****would do it just for you.
And share with you it's beauty
On the days you're feeling blue.
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own.
A place to find serenity
A place to be alone.
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea.
But all these things I'm finding
are impossible for me,
I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair
But let me be...what I know best,
A friend that's always there.

by Khahlil Gibran

Hey Ivy!! I really do appreciate your sweetness!! Thank u so much.XXX

Hey! How's it going??
I hope things are better for you now. Try to think positive ok? Life is too short!
I am sure your friend is in a better place.
Ppl talk about going to hell, but personally, I think that this, where we are and what we go through each day is a "hell" of sorts... seperation from God. When we pass on, we'll be reunited and all will be love and peace! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif
My mother said this the other day, courage is waking up everyday, knowing what you have to face, dreading it, but getting out of bed and facing it despite all that.
So in the words of Goethe, Be bold and mighty forces will come to your aid! (recognise that? Cameron Crowe used it in Almost Famous! hehe!)
I'll be praying for you and all the girls here every night. I promise! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

hey! I hope you feel better! Sometimes it helps me to feel better if i think of all the people that have it worse then me so im going to tell you a story and im sorry if it doesnt help.

My friend was from 3 to 5 years old, she had to sleep in parks, her mom was a alcoholic and drug addict, then she went to live with her gaurdian and she got abused by her, so now she is back to her mother. Then her mother abandonded her so now she is currently living at relatives and friends houses. And her grandma just recently died.

Sometimes people are meant to go through hard things only to make them stronger...like fate or destiny. Sometimes you just have to scream into a pillow, take deep breathes, read, draw, write in a journal about all of your feelings, and talk to people.
But NEVER EVER EVER harm yourself or others in anyway like cutting, suicide, hitting, or anythign! it doesnt help! instead why dong you throw pillows at the wall or something.

I hope this helped and if it made it worse then im SOOO SOOO SOOOOOO SORRY!

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When your lonely lost your way
and your in your darkest age
dont you know the sun is going to shine again
when your luck is running out
and your mind is full of doubt
dont you know that everything will work out
the sun again will shine
upon your troubled mind
oh my baby you will shine
and all those distant dreams
are closer then they seem
oh my baby you will shine
--Slackstring*

Hey Confusedme...
Thanks for replying..u could never make me feel worse! I thought that things made u stronger...now I am at the point of just being pushed over the edge into worse depression. I don't know if that makes sense!

I have damaged my back again so I am in pain a bit, feeling physically sick..and completely alone. I have the time of my life here...but I am so so so so depressed...I cant see a way out...honestly!! People say that there's always a way out of things..but I just cant see that happening soon. I cant do n e thing to make me feel better...i honestly cant. I am out of steam and have hit an all-time low again:'(

:'(

I was just wondering how everyone is. The board has seemed to be a little more quiet recently!!! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/biggrin.gif

Big hugs n xs!XXX

I know how you feel! This last year I've had so many bad things happen in my family, and I thought it was crazy enough before. My dad died, then my sister got in a car accident, then my other sister got attacked by two pit bulls and her lungs almost got popped, on top of which I had surgery and my mom was getting remarried. The thing that helped was that, sadly enough, my bestfriend's mom died a week before my dad (which was of course the worst of it all)so I felt like someone really understood. I also didn't feel like I was the only one to have such bad things happen, so I didn't start down a hole of pitying myself. It's very easy to do that!

Especially when someone dies, it's a good time to remember the importance of really living and being the best person you can be. And you have to think of that person who died as being relieved of their duties here on Earth, and that they're the lucky one who gets to vacation now.

Hope this helps http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

Thank you so much for your reply. Wow, and I thought I was having a terrible time. You seem to be such a strong person- how on earth do u do it? How is your sister now? Sorry for the questions..I am just fascinated. I am just prety much self-pitying at the moment...I feel sorry for myself coz I feel so down and noone in my life would be able to understand feelings I have. I just wanna cry and be with someone in the same position, just like you did.

Thanks againxx