last year i discovered bulimia. i didnt quite manage doing it too descretly when i had to use the college toilets, my eyes were usually very red and i always felt people were looking at me as tho to say "i know what your up to". i thought it was great being able to eat whatever you wanted all at once then purge it all out of your system, it's not, it only makes you crave those foods all over again constantly wasting food, time and pain. i would often scratch my throat, have light headedness and red eyes. everything i ate i had to get it out of my system because i felt sick knowing my body would be storing the excess fat. paranoia was probably the worst things because your mind is always repeating the foods you crave and the same time repeating how fat and discusting it would make you feel! i know realise that bulimia will always be with me although i have reduced dramatically how much i do it.
im so angry at myself for being so foolish into doing it in the first place, becoming influenced by films and a friend ( i knew what she was up to and put me into pier pressure).i hope that young women and men realise what they will be getting themselves into before they start. it actually becomes a mental disorder and it's no fun. i have gained a lot of information from other sites i can relate too, the pain and suffering is all real and dont underestimate the short and long term effects your putting your mind and body too. bulimia also puts friendship with other people and loved ones at risk too without you realising it

Hey Naomi!
U r right..people do underestimate what the effects can be. But...I am like a lot of people where..they don't care because..if I feel OK..that means internally..I am fine..which is misleading. Part of me doesnt care..what happens, happens. Some people (on the other hand) need these consequences of these illnesses as a 'wake-up call'.

when i was in high school (its been a while) i would make myself sick after eating. I regret ever doing it because i have trouble with my sinus, my memory really stinks, and i always think about it. Its been a long time since i did that but there are times that i just get sick without meaning too. It just happens. If i could turn back time i know one thing i would definitaly change.