I am obsessed with what I eat. I have really bad food anxiety and I'm sick of it but I can't let myself gain weight when i still want to lose more....I feel like i've been dieting my whole life and now i go crazy when i go into the kitchen..i get depressed and overeat then I feel horrible about myself afterwards so I cry or overexercise...It feels horrible not being able to control myself it you know what I mean? it makes me feel weak and worthless ..and depressed all the time...help HOW CAN I STOP THINKING ABOUT FOOD ALL THE TIME AND JUST BE NORMAL? please give some advice!

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June...((hugz))...just wanted to let u know that I feel pretty much the same!!!!!! I want to lose weight..but I have weird food cravings and just want to eat the fridge out http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif. I understand the frustration and the upset! We are just gonna have keep fighting each day.

Good luckxx

Thank you Emniem. I would like to wish you good luck also http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

i totaly understand where you are comming from ! everyday i think to myself ok ....i need this,..... the one thing i need in life is my worst enemy.... i can honestly say i fear food more then cancer or anything else silly as it may be i know it is the truth !!!! its weird i go through phases ..... for a few months i will obsess with anything i put in my mouth before i eat it then after months or so im soooo exhausted with worrying that i just go on a mad binge for a few weeks.... till i see what the result of my constant binge is then the whole cycle begins again... http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif i wish i had some advise to gove to you !!!! i am also looking for a answer.... so if you ever find one please share it with me .

I guess she is right..we just have to fight it everyday...but whatever advice or answer i'll find i'll be sure to share it with you ...good luck

First off (easier said than done, I know!) STOP thinking about it.
1. You're trying to lose weight, so automatically food becomes the "enemy". Think of your body ....as a car. Food as gas. Cars don't run without gas, your body can't run without food. Not eating is never the answer
2. Binging.......you do this because of primarily 2 reasons. 1. You're obssessing over weight loss and the thought of all those oh-so-good but "bad foods" keep running thru your mind, of course you're going to get hungry when you think of food all day long. or 2. you actually with-hold from food and that puts your body running on the reserve gas tank. When you drive by the gas station (refrig.) the car wants to stop to fill up.
Try eating on a schedule, if possible. Drink a glass of water before each meal and each snack (ice cold water) and only buy things that are okay to binge on. Fruits/veggies and/or things that wouldn't make you feel so horrible about eating.
Make sure you take vitamins. Sometimes the body will crave excess food(s) if you have some sort of vitamin deficency.
Good luck.

I really understand what you are going through, June.

I believe BumFuzzled made some very good points and gave great advice. Drinking ice cold water before each meal and snack is a very good idea. Not only does it help you to eat less, it fills you up and helps with digestion and flushing out your system.
If I have a serious craving I first have a huge glass of cold water w/lemon. I wait 15 minutes and if I still am hungry for it and the craving persists, I give in, but I don't overdo it. Of course, this doesn't work every time, there are days I say screw the water and I binge! But this helps because you may be thristy and your body is tricking you into wanting food because it knows it can get water from food. Also the water can fill you while you're waiting for those 15 minutes to pass and your craving might have passed along with it.

Food obsession is a very difficult thing to deal with as food is everywhere and you need it every day, to live. It's not something you can just give up or learn to live without. As it was said, take one day and a time and think of food as your fuel. Not your enemy and not some power over you. It's simply needed for your body to be healthy and happy. Think about what you put in it and ask yourself, will my body benefit from this or is this something just for my tastebuds?

I know how hard this is, but you are not along and I have faith that you. Distract yourself, keep yourself busy and you ARE aloud to "give in" and eat a little something here and there that isn't "healthy". For example, having just one piece of dark chocolate after dinner each night can reduce cravings for sweets and will also satifsy that want for chocolate. This can prevent binges big time because you are not totally restricting yourself.

Good luck, hon.

Thankyou Bumfuzzled and Amby for your advice. I am going to try my hardest to use it. Good luck to everyone else also.

Do certain people set you off?

I met this guy and when I go out to eat with him its like Im completely normal. When I go out with a certain family member I can barely eat at all, and when I do eat i puke. And when I go out with the family member, its like we pull up to a restaurant and I suddenly feel like something bad will happen if we go there and I have to go et somewhere else.Sometimes this will happen at a couple of places in one night. Do you think if I moved away from this person my eating disorder would go away completely? I also cant eat in my house...